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In The Dark

Have you ever heard of that song from evanescence “I’m going under”? I love that song and yeah i was in that situation last month. First of all i want to apologize to all of you for disappearing for a few weeks not updating anything and seriously I didn’t mean to do that. I was in a lot of stress and I couldn’t think of what to update here. Every time I start a post I would write a few words, delete the whole thing and then start again. It went on like that for a few days and in the end I just closed the app and decided i might do an update later on. I procrastinate a lot so later ended up today a few weeks later. I am so so so sorry guys.

First things first I want to update you guys that I have already bought my new guitar! Yes yes yes and yes! Here’s the picture of the beautiful guitar. Hahaha! It’s Pink I chose that color coz everything I have now is pink. I used to hate that color a lot but now i think it just calms me down just like when i look at the sky or the grass and etc. It’s been quite a while since I last touched a guitar so I am still getting used to it. Getting all the blisters on my fingers again and of course remembering the chords. I can’t even play the songs i wrote a few years back.

I actually didn’t bake a lot these days and i have gotten so lazy I didn’t even bother to bake anymore. I have to get rid of that laziness. Let me tell you about what happened that made me dive into the darkness for a while there. You guys know that I have issues with my other half right? Well, on the 5th he came over with my eldest boy to spend a week here. I was so happy that I could see my little boy again and of course to see him. Even though thigs weren’t going right between us I still had feelings for him. The good thing is that we spent the whole week shopping which is what we all girls like to do but… jeng jeng jeng… there is a but. I told you he had this temper right? Well i thought that we hadn’t seen each other for quite a while that he would miss me.. na ah! He was 24/7 with his phone! He even locks his phone, and another thing is that he liked to yell at me for small things like not remembering the way to the babysitter’s place. I am only human, I just sent them there once and my sister was driving. I really couldn’t remember the way. He was so impatient he starte cussing and so on. Well that emotionally disturbed me and even worse he didn’t even bother to talk to me when we were at home. He spent his time with his darling handphone. Didn’t even bother to look at me. We had fights every single day. I felt so unwanted. Well I wont tell all in details thought coz that’s for me to know and keep.

I know to some people what happened is like someting small and wouldn’t effect their lives but he was not like this last time and the drastic changes do effect the way I feel when he does that to me. Oh my gosh! I have to update the story now and there are so many other things I want to update too. I just hope I can remember them all to post them here.

Well see you in the next chapter of The Not so Romeo & Juliet Story.


Video in the Making

click here

I was actually walking home yesterday and had this weird idea of making a video and sing at the same time… I haven’t finished editing the whole thing still need to add more stuff to it but here it is…


I will be adding more stuff so you can still click on the same link and the most updated video will apear… for now just enjoy it while it is there

Don’t Know Why~ Norah Jones (Cover)

I have been doing a lot of singing lately and I mean a lot! well here is another cover… SOLO this time hahaha….


Link to the Cover PLEASE CLICK HERE <—-click there to listen

Here are the Lyrics if you want to sing along

I waited ’til I saw the sun
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I left you by the house of fun
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I don’t know why I didn’t come
When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand
My heart is drenched in wine
But you’ll be on my mind
Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I’ll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone
My heart is drenched in wine
But you’ll be on my mind
Something has to make you run
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I don’t know why I didn’t come

Chandelier Cover (Duet) Just for laughs….

Chandelier duet … on smule  <—–click on the link to listen

please don’t make fun of the funny voices okay…


Here are the Lyrics Just in case you feel like singing along…

Party girls don’t get hurt
Can’t feel anything, when will I learn
I push it down, push it down

I’m the one “for a good time call”
Phone’s blowin’ up, they’re ringin’ my doorbell
I feel the love, feel the love

1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink

Throw ’em back, ’til I lose count

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

But I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cos I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cos I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight

Sun is up, I’m a mess
Gotta get out now, gotta run from this
Here comes the shame, here comes the shame

1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

When I was a Kid…

My dad said when I was a kid I was really talkative and I didn’t care who it was and where I was, I would talk to anyone that stood beside me or in front of me, whether I knew them or not. Hahaha that’s funny Coz when I see myself now, It’s hard for me to talk to people I don’t know, unless they start talking to me that is… My dad also said that I would follow anyone as long as they gave me something I liked… That’s true till today but I don’t follow just anyone…

I used to sing alot, ask alot of questions like a normal kid would. I was really annoying though and I wouldn’t stop asking till I thought what you said was correct “for me” and that didn’t mean that I was listening to the correct information. ERRRKKSSS… typical kid! hahaha.

There was this thing that happened back then that I would remember until today. It was celebration for Hari Raya Aidilfitri I forgot which year, we were on our way to my grandma’s place when we got involved in a car accident half way…. My cousin was killed and a few other people were badly injured. Back then they used trucks as public transport and that’s what we rammed into.

I didn’t really remember what happened, after all I was only a kid at that time. Ok Here’s the story from what I remember it to be…

I was sitting inside the pick up with my mom, sister, dad, and my grandma (my mom’s mom), the others were sitting at the back. The others were 3 of my aunts and 2 of my cousins. As usual a kid would never sit still inside the car no matter how much you nag at them, so there i was jumping about inside the car listening to my grandma nagging when all of a sudden my dad started to swing his arm from side to side trying to shoo something away from his face, he said there was a bee in the car and he was trying to push it out of his view. From the front of the car I saw a big cloud of dust form up maybe because a car was coming from the other side. I could still hear my grandma nagging before I heard screams and felt myself fly out from the front of the car. Maybe the mirrors broke that’s why I flew out.

I got up and saw that the pickup truck was facing away and I was under the  other truck’s front Tyres. What I didn’t know was I nearly got run over by that truck and my head could have been smashed to bits if it didn’t stop in time. I wasn’t  scared because I didn’t know what was happening at that time. I ran toward our pickup truck and started knocking on my dad’s side of the door. I didn’t know he was knocked out cold. He opened the door after what seemed like hours and I started to cry now afraid that they left me behind here in this place where I didn’t know anyone at all.

Frankly speaking, I didn’t know what the hell was happening at that time. All I wanted was mommy! My dad carried me and checked on the back of the pickup truck. My cousin was unconscious and my aunts were bleeding everywhere. After a while the ambulance came and I went in with my unconscious cousin on the same ambulance.

When we reached the hospital, they didn’t treat us like we had an emergency. Don’t know what their system was like back then. They asked us to fill up some forms and without that we weren’t allowed in and no treatment was given to us! Jack asses! My cousin was unconscious for goodness sakes! After what seemed like hours we finally finished all the paperwork, my cousin was taken to ICU and I had to get my head stitched up. My dad had a broken nose, my sis had a bruise on her bum and my grandma had a short amnesia… My other cousin had a cuts on her knees and that was it, my aunt broke her hand and the other 2 were fine just cuts along their necks and faces.

That afternoon we heard the bad news about my cousin. She had internal bleeding in her brain so she didn’t make it. She died halfway through the surgery. I bet that’s because of the fact we took so long to fill up the paperwork before anybody decided to do something. I really was close to her and losing her was a big thing for me. Her parents were there when the doctor told us that she was gone. I saw my uncle punch the wall and left a big crack on the wall. He is gonna hate my dad forever! That’s what was on my mind back then…

That event, will be remain in my head till the day I die. Even though I was still a kid at that time… I faced a near death situation and I hope that will never happen again….

The week off…

First of all I would like to apologize for not updating anything for the past few days. It’s not that I didn’t want to but a whole lot of things happened that I didn’t even get to touch my phone and update anything.

Baby Fever
First of all Adrian and Amsyar caught the fever and when I sent them over to the babysitter on Monday I didn’t expect them to be sick because they weren’t acting like they were sick and they were totally fine. Monday evening I got a text from the babysitter saying that both were having a fever and she didn’t want to look after them when they are sick. She was giving a whole lot of excuses so she didn’t need to look after them. She asked me to pick them up the next day after work. I was too tired to argue with her so I just said okay. My sister was working the morning shift so I had to ask help from someone else.

when we got there Adrian was awake by himself in front of the TV and the babysitter? She was sleeping. That was just great! If you found your kid in that situation what would you have thought? I really was happy to take them back and look after both by myself not minding to take off for the next few days for my beloved babies. I was not going to leave my kids like that NO WAY! so there I was asking someone else for help to get my kids and really I hate troubling other people. I needed to get my kids to the clinic A.S.A.P. I had to wait till my sister got back from work to take Adrian to the clinic. amsyar’s fever had gone down but Adrian just got worse. I called the office to inform that I couldn’t come if for work and left for the clinic. After that we just went home had dinner and that was it for that day.

My mom’s arrival
My mom arrived the next day and i didn’t get to go with my sister to get her at the airport because the kids were at home. Adrian got better so I went to work on the 10th but on the 11th I had just come in to work for like an hour and I had to go home because Adrian’s temperature had gone up again so there I was again going home off work. The next day I got a message from my Team Leader and she told me that I could take another day off to look after the kids. I was really grateful for that. The weekends came around and the kids got a bit better and then we sent them to the babysitter again on monday.

That was my week…
I am still updating on the next chapter for the story though so keep posted guys.

Super Laziness OVERLOAD!!!!

I don’t know why my brain doesn’t seem to be working. I can’t seem to think of anything to add on to chapter 13. Maybe because I only have 1 off day this week because of the shift change. O yeah I kind of forgot to set my brain to the new shift. I was originally working the 1am-10am shift and now I am working the 9pm-6am shift… and I only had 1 off day last week which was Sunday… My kids are at home and luckily my sister was kind enough to be a babysitter. I don’t know how i would have the kids with me for only one day and then send them back the next day. I can imagine how upset Adrian would be.

I think I need some time to think of what to write next in the story. Let me just update what we did on Sunday. We actually went to pick up the kids at the babysitters really late because my sister was working the morning shift which meant that she got off work at 4.30pm. We got at the babysitters place at 5pm something. The kids just woke up from their nap and didn’t bathe yet. My sister and I were hungry, so we decided we would eat out for the night. I was sleeping the whole day so i got nothing done. No cooking, no baking, no house cleaning. Laziness alert much!!!! Oh gosh total laziness overload!!! EEerrrkkk!

We went home first to give the kids a bath and then we headed out to Paradigm Mall just nearby, and decided we would go to “THE CHICKEN RICE SHOP”. Hahahaha maybe I can do a bit of a review of the food there too. Parking at paradigm was never easy. We had to go around like more than 5 times until we got a parking spot and by the time we got out of the car the kids were restless. Amsyar was throwing a tantrum and Adrian just wanted to go out of the car. When we got to “THE CHICKEN RICE SHOP” there were already Menu’s on the table so the 2 boys got hold of the menus and started pointing to everything that was on the Menu.

We got a meal for the kids and 1 meal each for me and my sister.

This is what we ordered:
1x kids meal
Rice balls and roast chicken meal
Included a few rice balls
some fried dumplings and a small part of roasted chicken.
It also included 1 glass of soya bean

2x roasted chicken and rice

Side orders:
Kerabu mangga
pai tee

I liked everything but the Kailan. Totally not enough sauce. My sister said it looked like i was eating trees. Hahahahaha… yeah it really did feel like i was eating trees and a lot of them too. I ended up ordering extra rice because Amsyar was a big eater and so was I (Guilty).

We actually finished everything except the Kailan. I am not going to order that ever again. If any of you are planning to go and have lunch or dinner at chicken rice shop please don’t order Kailan! Not recommended! Everything else was good.

After dinner we went to Popular because my sister said she wanted to buy stationery. Refills for her markers or pens or something for her outlet. She worked at Starbucks Coffee as a person in charge so she had to do a lot of stuff too. She didn’t find what she was looking for but we just walked into a sale here! So we decided to buy something for the kids. We went to the toddlers section and let the kids wonder around there and yes they picked what they wanted of course!

After that we went home and it didn’t take long for the kids to fall asleep, tired from the travelling i guess, but overall it was a fun night anyway.

Till the next post guys!
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Bet you everyone has been through some things in life that you would never forget. Especially being the laughing stock…
Well let me share a few:

1. This happenned 2 years back when I was still working at a bakery…

My alarm clock was ringing at 4.30am. My shift started at 6am. Unfortunately…I didn’t hear the alarm. Well I did but that was in my dreams and was trying to find the bloody thing so I could switch it off! Hmmm… of course my brother woke up. he took the phone and pointed the thing at my face, woke me up and….. OMG!!! my reactions when i’m half asleep! I took the phone pressed the answer button and like answering a phone call i said hello! HAHAHAHAHA!
It took me a while to realise that both of my brothers were awake and laughing their butts off!!

2. There was this other time, quite similar to the incident above, but this time, MY BROTHER’S alarm was ringing! He had a flip phone and so did I… Well that didn’t sound quite right… hahaha… Okay back to the story… So what happened was.. He woke up and wanted to see what my reaction was if he woke me up with his alarm….

He woke me up, and flipped his phone open in front of my face! Coincidentally my phone was right beside me and BOOM!!! there I was again with my awful habit… I took my phone Flipped it open and wala! i put it in front of his face too! It’s like…LOOK HERE I GOT A FLIP PHONE AND IT SHINES BRIGHTER THAN YOURS!!!

LOL!! and you guessed… I was the laughing stock again!!!

3. Well this last one happenned just recently in my new house….

One day my sister came home from work and I was fast asleep in my room dreaming my way to some paradise resort hehehe… She woke me up just to ask for her water bottle!!!! What a pain!!! Well by reading the short stories up there you might have guessed what happenned next….
my sister: Hey! wake up!! Have you seen my water bottle?
me : hmmmm…. Welcome to (company name) Reyna speaking how can i help you?
my sister: (jaws wide opened) What the??
me: (realizing that I just said something silly and was annoyed to hell with what happenned started to scream at my sister…) YOU IDIOT!!! Why’d you have to wake me up in the middle of the night just for your stupid bottle!! use your eyes and find it yourself!!!!

Well… there were still alot to tell but if i did type them all out i think it will fill up my whole blog!! hahaha.. If you do have any stories you want to share just leave comments and let me know… I might be able to publish it in my little blog.. who knows?? heheheh Thanks for reading and please comment!!!

Song in the making….

After not singing for a long time. I decided to go on smule and did a singing marathon hahahaha… that is one of the reasons why i hadn’t updated anything in my blog. Well I just thought of a new song and here are the lyrics….

U had the smile of an angel
your words soothing as ever
I trusted you with my life
my everything

I never thought
not in my wildest dreams
did i think I would go through
all this pain

your lies your lies
drive me crazy to the bones
your lies your lies
they make me feel unwanted

those were the days
those were the memories
i will keep in my mind
but no more no more

all the memories we shared
all the good and the bad times
just down the drain like that
what did i ever do to you?

your lies your lies
drive me crazy to my bones
your lies your lies
they make me feel unwanted

i can take no more no more no more
I don’t feel no more no more no more
you can kiss it all goodbye
there will be no more no more no lies….
stay tuned for the music arrangements…

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