The week off…

First of all I would like to apologize for not updating anything for the past few days. It’s not that I didn’t want to but a whole lot of things happened that I didn’t even get to touch my phone and update anything.

Baby Fever
First of all Adrian and Amsyar caught the fever and when I sent them over to the babysitter on Monday I didn’t expect them to be sick because they weren’t acting like they were sick and they were totally fine. Monday evening I got a text from the babysitter saying that both were having a fever and she didn’t want to look after them when they are sick. She was giving a whole lot of excuses so she didn’t need to look after them. She asked me to pick them up the next day after work. I was too tired to argue with her so I just said okay. My sister was working the morning shift so I had to ask help from someone else.

when we got there Adrian was awake by himself in front of the TV and the babysitter? She was sleeping. That was just great! If you found your kid in that situation what would you have thought? I really was happy to take them back and look after both by myself not minding to take off for the next few days for my beloved babies. I was not going to leave my kids like that NO WAY! so there I was asking someone else for help to get my kids and really I hate troubling other people. I needed to get my kids to the clinic A.S.A.P. I had to wait till my sister got back from work to take Adrian to the clinic. amsyar’s fever had gone down but Adrian just got worse. I called the office to inform that I couldn’t come if for work and left for the clinic. After that we just went home had dinner and that was it for that day.

My mom’s arrival
My mom arrived the next day and i didn’t get to go with my sister to get her at the airport because the kids were at home. Adrian got better so I went to work on the 10th but on the 11th I had just come in to work for like an hour and I had to go home because Adrian’s temperature had gone up again so there I was again going home off work. The next day I got a message from my Team Leader and she told me that I could take another day off to look after the kids. I was really grateful for that. The weekends came around and the kids got a bit better and then we sent them to the babysitter again on monday.

That was my week…
I am still updating on the next chapter for the story though so keep posted guys.

How did you know? (Chapter 17)

“Goal!!!” I stood up in delight and clapped as Chelsea scored another goal. I turned around and Sam was also up he looked at me and we gave each other a high 5. “Sorry I am like this when I watch a match, even when I am alone.” I grinned and looked around us. The majority of the people at the restaurant were all Man U fans. “oopsss.” I said covering my mouth with my hand, shrugged and sat back down on my seat.

I took a sip from my drink and sat down as we continued to watch the match which was in the last half. My phone rang and it was Bob on the line. “Hey girl you free next week my boys and I were thinking of going over to the bar and doing a birthday party for my friend here. Hope you can join us” I marked the date in my important dates on my phone and told Bob that I would text him for any updates.

“who’s that” Sam asked as I hung up the call after talking to Bob for a few minutes.

“just a customer at the bar, he wants to book the place for his friend’s birthday next week. I have check the dates so need to give him a call back later to update.” I smiled and kept watching the game when my phone rang again and this time it was my dad. “uh oh” my heart skipped a beat. “what now?” I didn’t know whether to answer or not. I haven’t found Grace yet and I was scared. I looked over to Sam and he gave me a shrug.

“Just answer it. what’s wrong?” He stood up and went toward the counter i guess to buy cigarrettes. I quickly answered the call. “yes dad, what’s up?” I wasn’t expecting a good answer and the question that I dreaded suddenly came around.

“hey lyn, everything is up except your sister. Have you found her yet. I am getting sick of waiting you know?” I bit my lip and kept quiet waiting for what he was going to say next. “Why are you quiet? I know you haven’t even started looking yet. Just mark my words young lady. If you don’t find your sister soon you wont be seing your dad anymore and you have to take my place in looking after your mom, aunt and siblings if i leave okay.” He hung up the call and again I was left looking at the phone in dismay. i felt my eyes swell up with tears. I tried to hold the tears back and lit up a cigarette trying to focus on the game. I saw Ryan looking at me from across the table. I felt him kick my leg and asked me what’s wrong. I just shook my head and continued smoking. I didn’t realise Sam was watching me the whole time.

“What happened? who was that?” Sam’s question was what i didn’t want to answer. I suddenly felt like crying and I needed to get out of there before they saw the other side of me “sorry guys i have to go.” I stood up and walked toward the nearest bus stop. Before I could reach the bus stop I felt someone pull my arm back.

“hey Girl, what’s wrong, you don’t just walk away on people like that okay?” I was already crying and I didn’t feel like talking so I looked down and just sat myself down at the sidewalk like I always did when I didn’t know what to do. I felt Sam sit down beside me. “You want to tell me about it?” he said pushing my shoulder with his. “you want to go somewhere else I can go and get the car and we can get out of here okay.” I just nodded I saw him get up and walk off and after a minute I saw his car driving up in front of me. I stood up and went into his car. I looked out the window on my side of the car and focused on the view outside trying to avoid any conversation with Sam. He drove on toward the beach and stopped at the parking lot where Gary always took me. He handed me his cigarrette box and a lighter. I immediately took one stick and lit it looking out toward the beach.

“I know what’s going on.” I heard Sam talk after a few minutes of silence. “I can help you look for her you know.” I was shocked. How did he know? I looked at him in shock and sat up. “don’t ask me how i know okay, i just know.” He smiled and lit his cigarette. I don’t know why but Sam was a guy you can get attracted to quite quickly and yeah I was actually getting attracted to him. I was trying to avoid though because I still had Gary on my mind. “you want to tell me about it Lyn?” I was getting uncomfortable but since no one was around I thought I could start by telling him what happened just then. I told him what my dad told me and I needed to find my sister as soon as possible.

“why don’t we start tomorrow?” he said suddenly. “Just go to where she works and ask her friends to tell her to call you. she knows your number right?” I never thought of that. I was actually smiling now and I was feeling better. I sighed as I leaned myself back on the seat and threw my cigarette out the window.

“Anyway” I paused, I really wanted to know how he found out my sister ran away from home. “How did you know about my sister Sam?” I asked him looking him right in the eye. He was fiddling with his phone. He looked up at me and smiled giving me a shrug.

“I could see it in your eyes I guess.” He said giggling. “your face shows a whole lot of emotions even if you don’t talk you know.” He added smiling at me.

“no Sam, seriously” I was not buying that answer “How did you know? do you know people I know?” I was getting more confused every minute.

“okay, remember that night when we went to Shan’s and you were leaning on my shoulder for support? you were talking about your sister and your dad and this guy named Gary boy or something” He smiled at me and added “I knew you didn’t mean to say all that but the music was not loud that time and I kinda heard everything that you said.” My face suddenly felt hot with embarrassment and I never realised that I talked about my problems when I was drunk.

“OMG! really?” I covered my face in embarrassment and laughed. “sorry I didn’t mean to drag you into my mess okay Sam. I never thought I would talk about that stuff when I’m drunk.” I looked down fiddling with my hands and I really was getting restless when suddenly I felt Sam pull my chin up to look at him.

“hey chin up okay? we will find your sister” he smiled at me and patted me on the head “you don’t need to be embarrassed about anything okay and stop blushing” he said laughing. OMG he was really making me blush like heck and I couldn’t help but laugh and looked away from him scared he would see me blush even more. I checked the time on my Phone and it was already 1am and I was getting hungry. “i’m kinda hungry Sam can we go get something to eat” I said as I put the phone back into my pocket. Before he could answer his phone rang.

“she’s fine okay she’s with me and we are heading to Cafe Rio to get something to eat you wanna join?” It was Ryan he was updating us on who won the match and asking Sam about me. “that was ryan being a worry wart” he said hanging up the call. “he worries about everyone except himself” he started to drive off to Cafe rio and surely there was ryan waiting for us already starting to eat what he ordered.

He waved at us with a smile as he continued eating. The roads were busy tonight and yeah as usual Sam held my hand while we crossed the road. I hit him on the shoulder “I am not a kid anymore okay i can cross the road without you holding my hand.” He laughed as he walked toward Ryan and sat himself next to Ryan calling the waiter over for the menu.

I didn’t know what to order so I asked Ryan and Sam to order for me. “let’s just order something for the both of us okay” Sam said looking through the menu and pointed to something i never had before. I just nodded and waited for the order to come. “Lyn please don’t walk away from us like that next time. You had me worried just then” Ryan was talking with his mouthful as he chewed on his food and took a sip from his drink. He swallowed his food and started talking again “You know there are no buses at this hour right?” I didn’t realize that until today because my friends used to look after me like I was a baby and if I ran off they would always come after me and made sure I was Okay.

I was laughing at him because he was talking and chewing at the same time. “I am serious okay Lyn don’t ever do that again.” he said pointing his finger at me. Sam was just laughing beside him and shaking his head. “Okay Ryan I wont do that again” I said smiling pushing his pointer away. The food and drinks arrived shortly after that and after we ate Sam asked me if I needed anything else before we went back. Nobody asked me that before, except for Gary that is. I just shook my head and said I was good. We headed home that night and Sam said he was going to pick me up tomorrow afternoon to look for Grace at her workplace. At least now I know that someone was going to help me find Grace.

I stared at the ceiling in my room at the hostel with the freddy knife in my hand just looking at it and pushing the blade in and out. The urge to cut myself was so strong that I threw the knife toward the wall and pulled the covers over my head. Gary’s voice suddenly came back into my mind “Don’t you dare think about it Lyn! put that knife away babe!” Tears started rolling down my face. “When are you going to call me Gary boy? I really miss you” I missed everything about him his smile, his laugh, his voice, his hugs and his jokes. I was going crazy just thinking about him. I wonder what he is doing right now? I reached out for my phone and without thinking I texted sam.

“hey what u doing? Kinda in dillema right now u free to text?”

Before I knew it my phone rang.

Sam’s First Move (Chapter 16)

“Hey Lyn!” I turned to see Ryan Running up the walkway from his outlet to the cafe. I had just finished setting up the Cafe and was on the way to Sandbar to open up. “I thought you are off today?” He was scratching his head as he walked beside me.

“I am” I said as i kept walking toward the bar. “Why?” Ryan was always asking me about what time I worked lately.

“There’s a football game today live on TV I know you love football let’s go and watch later after work?” It made me wonder why he is being like this. Is he asking me out? Darn I have too man boy problems already. I gave him curios look and kept walking.

“Chelsea is playing?” He said again. Before he could continue I stopped walking and turned to him. “Are you asking me out Ryan?” He grinned and kept scratching his head.

“umm actually Sam told me to ask you” I was really surprised why Sam didn’t ask me himself.

“really?” I asked as I continued walking. He followed me from behind and walked faster to catch up to me. “I’ll call him later okay Ryan” I said as I walked into the bar to unlock the chillers and check the stock. Ryan was sitting at the stool in front of the bar. “Do you want anything to drink? What time do you start work anyway?” I said turning on the hot water for the hot drinks.

“Actually I am finished and just about to leave. Yeah can you get me a teh tarik please. The way you always make it?” He was giving me that cheeky grin again. I didn’t waste time, as soon as the water boiled I made his drink and placed it on the bar in front of him. We were just talking when Berry arrived.

“sorry ma’am I’m late. The bus was so slow. Hi Ryan” She ran into the bar put her bag on the floor where we kept our bags took the broom and went ot the floor to start sweeping the sand. I just smiled and continued talking toRyan.

“I am going to send Sam a text now Ryan” I told him as i pressed the send button on my phone.

“Why can’t he just call me or something? I don’t eat people you know” Ryan actually knew that I was with Bill and he didn’t know I already broke up with him. He just smiled as he enjoyed the drink and soon he left.

Sharon arrived a few minutes after that running toward the bar because she was late. “Ma’am sorry the bus was slow” she put her bag down and ran toward Berry and helped her out with the tables.

“what is it with the busses?” I said as I cleared the sand from the sink and the floor in the bar. I walked to the back area for a smoke and automatically my mind drifted off back into time.

“How could you do this Lyn! Do you know how much I have spent for your fees and this is what you do?” My dad was furious. My discipline teacher actually called him and told him that he caught me smoking with my school uniform on at a shopping complex. I had my Head of Prefect Blazer on and this caused the school a lot of problems. Not only that he also reported that I had missed school for 3 months and only came during school parliamentary sittings because I was the Chief minister of the school Government. My Dad was working overseas at that time and he only came back once a year for a long holiday. But this time he was coming back in 2 days because the discipline teacher called him. “You are one troubled child Lyn. I wish you were never born” he hung up the call and I was left looking at the phone in dismay. Tears in my eyes I looked over at Gary who was sitting beside me on the sidwalk of the shopping mall where we hung out all the time.

“what’s wrong babe? Why are you crying?” I didn’t bother answering him. I just looked down resting my head on my arms and knees and cried my heart out. Gary was rubbing my back trying to comfort me. I didn’t feel like talking. I looked up wiped my tears and took a deep breath. “Let’s get out of here Gary boy!” I grabbed his hand and pulled him up. I could see the confusion in his face. I turned and walked away from him. “Be slow and you’ll get left behind” I said as I walked toward a bus just stopping at the bus stop in front of us.

“Hey Lyn! wait up!” I heard Gary run from behind. “where are we going?” i just keptwalking and stopped when he pulled at my bag.

“just follow and shut up okay.” i turned around and kept walking into the bus going to the beach. I heard him sigh as he followed me into the bus. I kept quiet all the way to the beach and got off on the 2nd stop where the stalls were. I walked straight to the corn and peanut stall with Gary tagging along behind me. After buying some boiled peanuts I walked over to the small huts at the park just opposite the stalls and took a seat. Gary was still running to catch up with me.

“slow down babe!” Gary was panting by the time he reached me. He sat next to me and took my backpack off my shoulders to put it on the table behind us. “what’s up? please tell me. I can’t stand looking at you like this babe.” He pulled me closer and put his arm over my shoulders and pulled my chin to make me look at him. I couldn’t talk. I just put my head on his shoulder and cried. “sshhh, tell me babe, what is it?” He gave me a hug and just held me like that. I didn’t want to talk and soon I had peanuts in my mouth and was looking at the beach watching the waves hit the sand over and over again.

“Lyn? are you okay?” Gary’s voice broke the silence “you haven’t said a word since we got here. you are getting me all worried.”

“i’m fine” i sighed putting more peanuts into my mouth. “Mr. Zainal reported me to my dad…” I paused “and now my dad wished I was never born.” I felt tears filling up my eyes again so i wiped them away and stuffed more peanuts into my mouth. “I think I’m suspended Gary boy.”

“Is your dad coming?” he asked me brushing my hair away from my eyes. I just nodded and kept eating the peanuts just looking at the beach. I reached into th plastic to find no more peanuts in the bag. I looked at Gary and smiled at him. I didn’t have to ask. “Okay wait here I’ll get more don’t go anywhere”

“Thanks babe you’re the best!” I said giving him a hug. It didn’t take long for him to come back with more peanuts. I was resting my head on the table and I saw him coming from a distance.

“Looks like it’s gonna rain babe.” he said placing the bag of peanuts on the table. I wasn’t listening as usual because I was more focused on the nuts. I kept stuffing more and more nuts into my mouth and just kept eating. Before we knew it the wind started blowing really hard and the rain came down really heavily. We were stuck in the hut and we were both soaking wet. My hair was all over the place and the peanuts were soaked too. I was freezing and kept close to Gary to keep warm.

It took about half an hour before the wind died down but the rain didn’t stop. I felt I was going to freeze to death then. I couldn’t bare the cold, if I was too cold I would get my asthma attacks. I was still okay but I was shiverring and I could see the concerned look on Gary’s face. He had seen me when I had my asthma attack and it isn’t easy to see someone sufferring I can tell you that.

“Babe you okay?” he was rubbing my arms and my back with his hands. “You are shiverring like crazy!” I just nodded and kept hugging him. I saw him grab his phone and soon he was talking to his driver. I always told him i prefer taking public transport but in this weather there was no other option. “Don’t forget to bring some towels and extra shirts.” I heard him say before hanging up. He took his sweater from his bag and handed it to me. “Here put this over yourself and take that wet shirt off” I did as I was told and I felt better having a dry sweater on instead of the wet shirt I had on just then.

His driver arrived 30 minutes later bringing some towels and umbrellas and plastic bags. Gary asked him to wait in the car while we got changed at the public toilets. I was still feeling cold after changing and I could hear my breath wheezing. “darn please don’t come” I said to myself as I walked out of the toilet. I saw Gary waiting for me with his umbrella and gave me one so we didn’t need to share an umbrella. I followed him from behind as we looked for his car and his driver.

We both sat at the back seat. I could see Gary checking on me from time to time. “You want to stay over at my place babe? Mom said she’s making steaming hot chicken soup.” The thought of staying home alone at a time like this wasn’t really what I wanted. I just nodded and didn’t say a word. I still had the towel wrapped around me and by the time we reached Gary’s house at the beach side the wheezing of my breathing caught Gary’s attention.

“Lyn? are you okay? I can hear you breathing.” he said as he opened his door to get out of his side of the car. I got out too and followed him from behind. His mom was at the door and she didn’t look surprised to see me there. “Hi Lyn, how are you?” She said taking our backpacks and putting them behind the door near the staircase leading up to the bedrooms.

“I’m fine aunty. Sorry for coming without informing. The weather was really bad just then” I said walking in after Gary. He was already sitting at the sofa watching TV. Gary’s mom told us she made us some hot chocolate and will be taking it to the living room for us. It was getting really hard for me to breath so I went to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and put the toilet bowl cover down and sat down just trying to relax myself and stop myself from getting an asthma attack.

Soon I heard Gary knocking on the door. “Lyn? Babe is everything okay in there?” How does this guy know there was something wrong? “yup I’m fine babe will be out in a bit” I said trying to sound as okay as I could. I quickly flushed the toilet and washed my face making sure I had the cover back up before getting out.

I stepped out and surely there he was standing right outside the door just waiting for me to come out. “Everything okay babe?” I was shocked. I thought you went to watch TV” I said just giving him a nod to his answer. I sighed and walked ahead to the living room and sat myself down on the sofa.

“Guys I’m heading out to go buy stuff for dinner okay just make yourselves comfortable and don’t do anything silly okay.” Gary’s mom walked past toward the door and soon she was gone. I took a sip from the hot chocolate in front of me and watched the tv.

“i know you are not okay babe?” Gary’s was sitting right next to me and drinking his hot chocolate. He rubbed his hand up and down my back. “just tell me if you need anything okay.” I just nodded. I didn’t know what else to say. Suddenly I felt a cold thrill down my back. It was so cold I nearly dropped my mug. “Oh shit!” I didn’t realise i had said that and Gary who was sitting next to me jumped in shock too. I put my mug on the coffee table in front of me and touched the back of my neck. “OMG! I just felt something cold go down my back and it hurts like heck!” I turned to Gary who quickly looked down the back of my shirt. “Hey!” I pushed him away. “I didn’t ask you to look down my shirt Gary Boy!”

“Sorry I didn’t mean to. I was just checking coz you said it hurt! Are you okay.” I was already standing up and just pulling at the shirt so the thing could go down and out the bottom. But the pain didn’t go away. It hurt from the neck downward. I grabbed Gary’s hand and put it on the back of my neck. Gary pulled his hand away. “Damn your neck is cold like Ice.” He ran off to get some warm water and a cloth and put it on the back of my neck. It hurt so much that I was crying, I signalled Gary for my inhaler which was in my bag behind the door. He ran over to get it and was back really quick. I wasn’t supposed to use the inhaler anymore but I couldn’t help it because of the sudden shock. I felt the relief after inhaling the first puff. I had to put like 4 puffs before I was feeling okay, but the pain down my neck was so bad I couldn’t talk. Gary had run upstairs to take a thick blanket for me and he had wrapped me up like a cocoon. I couldn’t help but laugh.

“how could you laugh at a time like this Silly” Gary was giving me that annoyed look. One of his eyebrows were up and he had this frown on his face. I covered my face with the blanket and just laughed silently. I felt him pull the blanket off my face. “are you okay?” I just pulled the blanket back over my face and told him to leave me alone.

“Go away and drink your hot chocolate or watch TV or something!” I said enjoying the warmth of the blanket. The pain was still there but it was not as painful as when it just started.

The vibrating of my phone in my pocket startled me and I was still sitting at the back area staring at the beach. It was Bill he had been texting me all morning. I pressed the reject button and dialled Sam’s number.

“Hey, Ryan told me u wanted to watch the Match later on? What’s with the message passing dude? I don’t eat people okay.” I giggled waiting for him to answer.

“He really asked you?” he laughed and continued “i was just saying it to him but since he already told you, then why not?”

I don’t know why I agreed but yeah I was going to watch the match with Sam and his guys tonight.

The Night Out (Chapter 15)

We were on the way to Shan’s in Sam’s car. It felt awkward being in the car with someone else other than Gary and it was silent the whole way to Shan’s. I didn’t want to start a conversation and even if Sam said something I would just answer with a yes or a no or just a word. Sam pulled over into a parking spot just opposite Shan’s and I could see Ryan and his friends waiting outside smoking their cigarettes and talking.

“Let’s go Lyn?” I looked at Sam as he bent down on my side of the car with the door opened. “Oo sorry,” I said as I stepped out of the car “kind of day dreaming” I gave him a grin and followed him. He held my hand as we crossed the busy road heading to Shan’s. I pulled my hand away as we reached the group. As soon as Ryan saw us he signalled for us to go in. I wanted to bring Jane along but she was busy with something today and said that John and Tim would be over there so they can keep an eye if something happened.

I searched the area to see if John or Tim were there but they were nowhere to be seen. I texted John to check. “Sorry babe something came up can’t come over. Tim is not in town”

Great! now I am here with this group of guys and noone to help me out if something went wrong. I had to be more cautious now. I thought to myself. They ordered a few jugs of beer. I guess most of them were already tipsy since they were already drinking at Sandbar just then. I just sat there feeling really weird but it had been a while since I went out with other people other than Jane, Gary, John and Tim.

I had a few mugs of beer before I was into the music and the guys were just talking amongst themselves and laughing at their lame jokes. I smoked a cigarette and looked over to the Djay stand where I could see Jeremy mixing the songs and playing the tunes for the night. He was a friend of mine from school, he waved at me from far and I waved back. I ordered a glass of JD on the rocks from the bar and went back to the table where the guys were. After that glass the music got better I think Jeremy still remembers the music that I liked. He smiled at me from a distance and I gave him the thumbs up sign in return.

The music was so good I had to get up and dance. I walked over to the center of the dance floor where there was a crowd of people dancing. I started dancing and I didn’t notice Sam was dancing behind me. I turned around and found myself facing him. I decided to just go on dancing and put my arms around his neck just over his shoulders and danced. Usually when Jane and I went out we would just dance with anyone so this is what I was doing. There were too many people on the dance floor and we were being pushed together. Soon we were so close I can see his chin in my face. It was a very akward position. I don’t know why but my heart was racing I looked up and Sam was just looking down into my eyes. He shrugged his shoulders and started pushing the people away with his arm. It was no use everyone was too busy dancing. I gave him the it’s ok signal and we continued dancing and the crowd only cleared a bit after that song.

“Sorry about just now. I didn’t mean to get that close.” Sam whispered into my ear as we walked back toward the table. I didn’t bother to answer. It wasn’t his fault anyway. I asked the waiter for another mug and poured a can of beer into it. I never used a mug that i left on the table just in case someone put something in it. I do party alot but I am always careful no matter how drunk I was. I took a cigarette and looked for my lighter but couldn’t find it. I took Sam’s and started smoking. I was getting really tipsy from all the drinks and I couldn’t stand straight. I felt Sam pull me in front of where he was sitting to keep me from falling over. “whoa! are you ok?” I put my hands in front of my face trying to regain control and trying to keep standing straight but I couldn’t. I circled my arms around his neck and leaned on him for support. He was around about the same height as Gary boy so In a sitting position I could just rest my head on his shoulder if I was standing and that was what I did.

The next song was one of my favourite songs so I wasn’t going to sit on this one. “Sam can we just dance here please I love this song.” I screamed into Sam’s ear. I just saw him nod put his arms around my waist and stood up. “girl are you sure ur okay?” he screamed into my ear.

“uh no” I screamed laughing.

He just smiled and shook his head and said “Just make sure you don’t fall over k”

I just nodded and closed my eyes dancing to the song and hanging on to him on his waist. After the song he sat back down on the stool. I turned around and faced the table with my back to him and leaned onto him for support. I was really tipsy and really I couldn’t stand up properly. I checked my phone and it was still early just a bit past midnight and I am already this drunk? OMG i need to get out of here before things get out of control. I reached out for my mug for another drink but Sam pulled my hand away. I turned around to look at him. “that’s enough Lyn” He had his arm around my waist and my hand in the other. I smiled at him and told him it was the last drink and I grabbed the mug and drank everything in it. I faced him and leaned my head on his shoulder for support. My head was spinning and I didn’t know how long my legs could support myself I felt my knees buckle and felt myself falling but Sam was quick enough to keep me standing.  “that’s it. no more drinks for u girl.” he brushed my hair away from my eyes and pulled me close to keep me from falling.

After a while I excused myself to go to the bathroom. I leaned on the sink for support looking at my face in the mirror. “Damn girl you look like shit!” I washed my face and walked out. Sam was waiting outside and he walked with me following me from behind. “You want to go?” He asked me when we reached the table. I looked at the time and it was nearly 2am. I was hungry and my head was still spinning so I just nodded and signalled for him to go outside.

I waved at Jeremy on my way out and waited for Sam outside. There were a few guys outside and the minute I stepped out of the door all their eyes were on me. Maybe I should have waited for Sam. As I turned around to get back inside one of them stepped in front of me “hey beautiful… going somewhere?” I didn’t bother answering. I stepped away and kept walking towards the door. The guy pulled my hand back so hard I stopped and he made me turn around to face him. “not so fast…” he brushed my hair away from my face but i slapped his hand away “ooo u r one rough girl” he said grinning. I was starting to panic where is Sam?

“Get your hands of her! she’s with me!” Sam pushed the guy away and pulled me toward him. “are you okay?” I just nodded and held on to him for dear life. We walked back to his car and he opened the door for me as o got inside. “You sure your okay? He didn’t do anything to you right?” I couldn’t answer my heart was still racing. I leaned back and closed my eyes as I felt him drive off. “Ryan and the guys are meeting us up at the Cafe Rio u okay with that?” I was starving so I just nodded.

Like before, the ride to Cafe Rio was silent. I had kept my eyes closed the whole way and my mind was drifting again. Gary was back in my mind. I think I just missed him too much. I sighed and opened my eyes just to find us still stuck in traffic.

“what? at this time of night?” I said looking out the window.

“I guess there’s an accident in front somewhere” Sam said fiddling with the radio “i thought you were sleeping.”

His phone started ringing and he was speaking to Ryan who was also stuck in traffic. I think they were going to change plans. “we’re going to another place Lyn, Ryan says we’re going to eat somewhere else.” I just nodded and closed my eyes again. I reached into my bag for my cigarettes and lit one. “where are we going sam?” I was curious to know because Cafe Rio was usually where everbody went. I didn’t know anywhere else but maybe a mamak stall. “I’m not sure what the place is called but it’s just around the corner there just after the traffic light.”

“Where are you from Sam? you mean you don’t really know the places here?” I asked him out of curiosity. It seemed that Sam was away for the past few years to study and he just got back a few weeks back just a few days before we met at Sandbar. There were too many changes where we lived so it wasn’t a surprise that he didn’t really know the name of the places. “I know my way around but sometimes I need to refresh my memory so i can remember” that was what he said as we turned after the traffic light.

I never went to this place before but it looked quite good and there were a lot of people here too. “hey I’ve never been here before.” I said as he pulled over in front of the place. It was called Dunkin’s Place. I was starving and I couldn’t wait to go and order. We headed to an empty table to wait for the others and I grabbed the menu and started to order. “damn i am starving” I said as I looked over the items available on the menu to order.

By the time Ryan and his friends arrived I had finished eating and me and Sam were just finished with our pool game. I would rather play pool than start a conversation with him now. I actually felt more comfortable that way. I was really tired by now and I asked Ryan if it was okay for me to go home. Ryan just looked over to Sam “hey why are you asking him Ryan? I thought I asked you right?” I slapped him on the shoulder and looked over at Sam who was just about to stand up and pay for the meal. He had his car keys in his hand.

I was still a bit tipsy from the drinks we had earlier and nearly fell over again while walking down the steps toward Sam’s car. “be careful clumsy” I heard Sam giggle as he grabbed my arm to keep me from falling. I just smiled and opened the door to get inside the car.

The Return…. (Chapter 14)

It was already a week after Gary left. There was still no news from him. I was cutting a coconut order that evening when my phone suddenly started ringing. “wtf!” I nearly cut my finger off when the phone vibrated in my pocket. “It must be Gary” I thought to myself. I quickly put a straw and a spoon in the coconut and put it on the bar for Jen to take to the customer. I ran to the back area quickly took my phone out of my pocket and checked the caller ID. Unknown number but not from overseas. “who could this be?” I answered the call and to my surprise it was Bill.

“Where have you been? Why only call now?” I asked him after listening to him talk without saying a word. He said that something came up and he had to go back to his hometown because one of his friends had some issues over there. Bill was a guy with a lot of excuses. He would always put his friends first ahead of me. Everytime we planned something he would cancel it if something came up with his friends. I was still angry with him but I didn’t know if I still had any feelings for him as a boyfriend. After what he did? I didn’t know what to say anymore.

“So you decided to just disappear and not say anything to me? what do you expect me to think hey?” I ended the call and went back to work. He tried to call again but i just ignored his calls, put the phone in the cash register and locked it in there so i couldn’t hear the damn thing.

It wasn’t very busy so I decided to smoke at the back area just watching the beach where people were walking around, swimming, running around, taking photos, there were couples walking around holding hands… My thoughts suddenly went back to the times I had with Gary. “I miss you Gary boy, I hope you call me soon.” Gary had told me he might not be able to call me when he got there because he had a lot of things to take care of. I asked Tim and John the day before when they came over with Jane if Gary had contacted them and they too hadn’t heard from him yet.

I was startled by the sound of David’s voice coming from inside the bar. “what’s up Lyn? How’s your sister? you found her yet?” I just shook my head and looked out at the waves at the beach. “hey 6pm you don’t need to come over for briefing you guys do your own briefing here and text me on the updates of the briefing okay? Don’t think too much okay i have to go.” I looked at him walk back to the cafe as I myself walked back into the bar to check my phone.

At last Bill stopped calling. There were at least 20 missed calls. I didn’t care,he didn’t even care what happened to me when he left without a word. Suddenly my phone started ringing again and this time it was Sam. He had been sending me texts quite frequently these past 2 days. Berry always got excited if he sent me texts and I would always tell her that i would tell sam that she had the hots for him if she didn’t shut up. That always worked. I answered the call and he said they were going to come over to the bar later in the evening with Ryan and their friends. I told him that he can come over with his friends anytime as long as we were opened. I told him I couldn’t talk for long during working hours and we ended the call.

I could see Berry walking over from the food court. She had to come in late today because she had classes in the afternoon and of course I had to tell her that Sam just gave me a call. “What? Awww y didn’t he wait till I came? That is so unfair ma’am!” She had that unsatisfied look on her face. I laughed and walked out of the bar to signal to Jen that we were going to have briefing at the bar today. “Girls, David decided that we also have to have a Briefing over here as well even though we are just a small part of the cafe over there, he actually said we were operating on our own now! Give yourselves a pat on the shoulders!” I talked about the new management system and how I was in charge of everything at the Sand bar from now on and even though I do need to go back and forth to the cafe every now and then my main focus would be at the Sand bar. After 15 minutes we went for break. Sharon and Berry stayed at the Bar while I went with Jen to the food court.

To my surprise Bill was there. Great! now I have to face him and his lame excuses. “Ok go ahead Jen I will go with Bill you can go eat with the guys from the cafe.” I walked over to where he was sitting and sat down opposite him. “What do you want?” I glared at him just to show that I didn’t want him there. I would usually sit next to him if he came over but I didn’t feel like sitting next to him anymore. He was no longer my boyfriend. He is just another guy to me now.

“Don’t you miss me?” he said trying to grab my hand. I slapped his hand away “How dare you ask me that question Bill? What do you think I am? A doll that you can just leave behind and come back to anytime you please? Sorry but we are over!” I got up and walked towards the guys to join them for break. Before I could reach the guys he stepped in front of me and whispered in my ear “You better come with me or else!” He was grabbing my hand and pulling it toward him as he walked toward his car. I didn’t want  to cause any chaos at the food court so i just followed him.

“HEY! what was that all about?” I pulled my hand away when we got to his car. “Don’t you dare interrupt me when I am doing something Bill!” I was so angry at him that I didn’t care about the people who were walking around at the parking area. “Who the hell do you think you are telling me what to do when you just left without a word? And you come back expecting me to just fall into your arms again? Just get lost and don’t come back okay?!” I was on my tiptoe and facing him looking him right in the eye. “If you think I am scared of you, You are totally wrong Mister! You are messing with the wrong girl!” Before I knew it I saw his arm pull back and try to hit me. He had done this before but I was so used to it that I learnt to just stop his hand before it reached me.

As I lifted my arm to stop his arm from hitting me I felt something or was it someone pulling me from behind. “Hey! you don’t just simply hit girls bro! what is your problem?” I turned around to see Bob and his friends. He pulled me behind him so he could face Bill. “Just scram bro before we do anything to you! Go!”

“I am not done with you yet Lyn!”I heard Bill say as he walked to his car and drove off.

“Girl are you okay? Don’t tell me that is your boyfriend because if he is you better just dump him okay” He had his hands on my shoulders.

“I’m fine Guys. He WAS my boyfriend but not after today. I just dumped him that was why he was so mad.” I said watching Bill’s car drive off in a distance.

“Wanna join us for dinner? we were just heading off when we saw you guys here. You were pretty brave standing up against him like that? hahaha” He patted me on the head and smiled. “By the way have you found your sister yet? How’s your dad?” That question was what I didn’t want to hear from anyone right now.

“No Bob, I haven’t, I don’t know where to start looking. She just disappeared. My dad still can’t accept the fact she did that and he is still threatening to leave us” I paused as I heard his friends calling him from a distance. I told him i couldn’t join them because i was working and had to go back to work soon. I saw them get into Bob’s car and waved as he drove off. I walked back and joined the guys just in time too because they were just starting to eat. I ordered my usual wattan ho and lime drink.

After break we went back to work and just as i get to the sand bar I saw Ryan waving from the table. They already had already ordered and started drinking. I walked into the bar and got myself a glass of water. Berry was in the corner staring at Sam. I could see that twinkle in her eye. I walked over to where she stood and whispered in her ear “Berry you want me to tell him you like him?” She stood straight and walked toward the bar. I followed her from behind giggling. “I told you the floor is to check if the customers need anything and not to check out the customers” I looked at her and she nodded. “Look over there Berry someone wants to order” I pointed to Ryan’s Table. Berry hurried to the table after talking to Ryan she looked at me and called me over.

I walked over to the table and Ryan pulled my hand so he could whisper in my ear. “Hey we’re going to Shan’s tonight I know you’re getting off early. Join us.” I looked over to Sam who was sitting right next to Ryan who was fiddling with his phone at that time.

“Hey Lyn I am talking to you!” once again he pulled at my arm. I laughed. “I’ll think about it okay Ryan”. I knew Jane and the guys wont be coming tonight and I didn’t have anything else to do anyway plus it was my off day tomorrow, but I wasn’t in the mood for partying. “You guys want to order more drinks?” I tried to change the topic but then Sam started to talk.

“Please Lyn come and join us. It’ll be fun. You can bring your friends if you want. we wont eat you.” I was having second thoughts now. I need to take my mind off Gary for a while. Without thinking I walked over to the bar took a bucket of beer and walked back to the table. “Here guys this is on me and Okay I will join you guys but you have to send me back to the hostel I need to get dressed up before joining you.” I saw Ryan’s face light up as he smiled and gave Sam a high 5.

“okay, Sam will take you to the hostel later and we’ll wait for you both at Shan’s.” Ryan was smiling as he took another sip from the mug in front of him. I looked at the time and it was already half past eight. I decided it was time for me to visit David and the boys at the cafe. I signalled to Ryan and Sam that I needed to go and started walking to the Cafe slowly. Usually there would be people selling stuff on the side-walk. They would sell lights, toys and stuff that kids like to play with. The beach was full of people, and everywhere I turned there were kids running around.

“Hey Lyn!” I saw David waving at me from his table. He was sitting with his friends. “Have you decided who we gonna promote?” he said as i approached his table. O darn I forgot about that. I shook my head and signaled that I had to go over to the bar where Harry was and walked off.

“Hey buddy, can you pass me the reports for the sand bar. I need to get off early today so i want to finish it off.” Harry headed inside the office and came back with a few pieces of paper. “Maam I heard your boyfriend is back.” He looked at me with a smile.

“Wow! news travel fast” I said sighing as I read the papers and filled in the empty spots with the report details. “Yeah and FYI he is no longer my boyfriend.! I just dumped him” I looked at him with a smile. “well I have to go now. I think it’s going to be peak hours at sand bar soon. See you at the hostel later and happy working.”

Super Laziness OVERLOAD!!!!

I don’t know why my brain doesn’t seem to be working. I can’t seem to think of anything to add on to chapter 13. Maybe because I only have 1 off day this week because of the shift change. O yeah I kind of forgot to set my brain to the new shift. I was originally working the 1am-10am shift and now I am working the 9pm-6am shift… and I only had 1 off day last week which was Sunday… My kids are at home and luckily my sister was kind enough to be a babysitter. I don’t know how i would have the kids with me for only one day and then send them back the next day. I can imagine how upset Adrian would be.

I think I need some time to think of what to write next in the story. Let me just update what we did on Sunday. We actually went to pick up the kids at the babysitters really late because my sister was working the morning shift which meant that she got off work at 4.30pm. We got at the babysitters place at 5pm something. The kids just woke up from their nap and didn’t bathe yet. My sister and I were hungry, so we decided we would eat out for the night. I was sleeping the whole day so i got nothing done. No cooking, no baking, no house cleaning. Laziness alert much!!!! Oh gosh total laziness overload!!! EEerrrkkk!

We went home first to give the kids a bath and then we headed out to Paradigm Mall just nearby, and decided we would go to “THE CHICKEN RICE SHOP”. Hahahaha maybe I can do a bit of a review of the food there too. Parking at paradigm was never easy. We had to go around like more than 5 times until we got a parking spot and by the time we got out of the car the kids were restless. Amsyar was throwing a tantrum and Adrian just wanted to go out of the car. When we got to “THE CHICKEN RICE SHOP” there were already Menu’s on the table so the 2 boys got hold of the menus and started pointing to everything that was on the Menu.

We got a meal for the kids and 1 meal each for me and my sister.

This is what we ordered:
1x kids meal
Rice balls and roast chicken meal
Included a few rice balls
some fried dumplings and a small part of roasted chicken.
It also included 1 glass of soya bean

2x roasted chicken and rice

Side orders:
Kerabu mangga
Kailan
pai tee

I liked everything but the Kailan. Totally not enough sauce. My sister said it looked like i was eating trees. Hahahahaha… yeah it really did feel like i was eating trees and a lot of them too. I ended up ordering extra rice because Amsyar was a big eater and so was I (Guilty).

We actually finished everything except the Kailan. I am not going to order that ever again. If any of you are planning to go and have lunch or dinner at chicken rice shop please don’t order Kailan! Not recommended! Everything else was good.

After dinner we went to Popular because my sister said she wanted to buy stationery. Refills for her markers or pens or something for her outlet. She worked at Starbucks Coffee as a person in charge so she had to do a lot of stuff too. She didn’t find what she was looking for but we just walked into a sale here! So we decided to buy something for the kids. We went to the toddlers section and let the kids wonder around there and yes they picked what they wanted of course!

After that we went home and it didn’t take long for the kids to fall asleep, tired from the travelling i guess, but overall it was a fun night anyway.

Till the next post guys!
thanks for reading please leave a comment!

Flashbacks… (Chapter 13)

“Babe please take care of yourself when I am over there okay?” Gary took his bag out from under the bed and started packing his clothes. I just continued to smoke and ignored everything he said. Shot glass in one hand and cigarette in the other, I looked out the bedroom window watching the waves hit the sand. The reflection of the moon was so clear in the water. My mind drifted back to one of the prom nights during college.

I had just broken up with a guy that I was together with for 2 years just to find out he was going out with another girl 2 days before prom night. I had no date so Gary volunteered to go with me since he didn’t have a date too. I was all dressed up and we agreed to meet up at the hotel. I still remembered that look on his face when he saw me that night.

“hey babe why are u looking at me that way?” i was waving my hands in his face and he didn’t budge an inch “hey earth calling Mr. Gary Boy!!!” I had to slap him in the face before he came to his senses.

“sorry babe u just look awesome tonight” it was the first time for him to see me all dressed up like this. “bad luck for Mr. Lawrence i got u for a date tonight haha”.

we laughed it out and danced like any other couple would in a prom and i didn’t think anything out of that night at all. It was the last song of the night and it was that song from celine dion “i love you” Gary just pulled me to the dance floor and we just danced to that song. I always felt comfortable in his arms and i just let him hold me that night just to forget what my ex did to me. I cried and he comforted me like he always did.

“Earth calling Lyn! hello? ” I saw his hands waving in my face. “hey are you even listening?” Gary was already done packing.

“to tell you the truth, gary boy i have no idea what you were saying” i threw my cigarette out the window and sighed. “what time is your flight?” without waiting for an answer or listening at all to whatever gary was saying i took my shot glass and drank everything in it, put it on the table and grabbed the tequila bottle pouring another shot into the glass.

“errmmm this tastes awesome” i drank the shot poured another shot and drank again slamming the glass onto the table. I shut my eyes, my head was spinning but it felt good.

before i could pour another shot Gary took the bottle out of my hand. “slow down there babe! you have been drinking non stop since i started packing” He put his hand in front of my face. “how many fingers do you see?”

“stop it gary boy!” I slapped his hand away “I am not in the mood to play around! now give me that bottle!!!”

“Come and get it if you can. I don’t think you can even walk straight in that condition!” He was actually nagging now. Wow! I’ve never seen him like this before. “How am I supposed to go over there if i know this is how you are going to act!”

“I don’t care! just give me that ! I never wanted you to go anyway! so just shut up and don’t try to become my dad ok!” I stood up and started walking toward him to get the bottle back but the minute i stood up everything just spun out of control. I couldn’t see anything properly everything was just double of everything and I just fell over like a log. I didn’t remember what happened next. When I opened my eyes I was laying on the sofa with a wet towel over my head. I tried to get up but everything was spinning. I held my head in pain. Gary was talking but I couldn’t make out what he was saying.

“you awake already?” I heard him walk from across the room. “Here have some water to drink” He sat down beside me and gave me a glass of water. I could smell the lemon in the water. I drank a bit and immediately i felt like i wanted to puke. I ran to the bathroom locked the door and everything just poured back out. A few seconds later I heard Gary knocking on the door asking if I was ok and for me to open the door.

“Babe open the door!” He kept banging on the door and asking me to open it. I just ignored and kept sitting nearby the toilet bowl, leaning my head against the bathtub i just closed my eyes. “Babe I am seriously going to break down the door if you don’t say something Lyn! Talk to me!”

I forced myself to talk “I’m fine babe. Don’t break down the door okay.” I heard him sigh but he still kept knocking.

“Can you get up and open the door please?” His voice more relaxed this time. I flushed the toilet and washed my face at the sink before walking over to the door. I saw him standing there but I walked past him my eyes still focused on the tequilla bottle on the table I didn’t even bother to look at gary. He tried to pull my hand back but i just pushed it away and walked to the sofa and sat myself down putting the pillow over my head and started sobbing.

“Lyn…please don’t do this babe” he slowly sat down beside me on the sofa. “take a deep breath, I am still here. I don’t have much more time to spend with you. please…” His voice trailed off in silence.

I pulled the pillow away from my face and looked at his face. I threw the pillow to the side giving him a hug. “shhh It’s ok, I know how you feel. I feel the same way too. Just try to get yourself together. You’re making me all worried.” He pushed my shoulder away looking at me right in the eye. I couldn’t look him in the eye I just looked down. “babe listen I am only going there to help my dad ok. once everything is okay I will come back for you. I promise”

“promise?” i asked him just to make sure looking him right in the eyes.

“o my gosh u mean everything to me Lyn I don’t know what or how i am going to make it there without u. But u mark my words I WILL come back for you and it’s a promise” he wiped my tears away and cupped my face in both of his hands before leaning over for a kiss. I just closed my eyes and my arms automatically circled around his neck returning his kiss.

He pulled away from the kiss and walked over to the radio to turn it on. The song “i love you” by celine dion was on air… he signaled for me to come over. I got up and walked towards him. “remember this song?” he asked as he placed his arms around my waist. I nodded and just started dancing with him. “This is our song babe” he paused running his fingers through my hair as we danced along with the song “just think of me every time you hear this song ok.”

I closed my eyes as we danced through the whole song. We were just holding each other like there was no tomorrow because there was no tomorrow. Gary was leaving for good I knew that and i doubt he was ever coming back. Even though he promised he was going to come back I had a bad feeling that he was never coming back.

“Do you still remember what happened at that prom babe?” his voice suddenly broke the silence. His voice was soft almost a whisper but I heard him. “You were upset because of that Lawrence dude?” The song came to an end and he pulled my chin up for me to look at him. “I was going to tell you right then and there how I felt about you but I was worried you would tell me off…” He paused keeping his eyes on mine he just stared into my eyes which made me nervous. “I love you Lyn and I am not going to wait another minute to tell you that” There were tears in his eyes. He pulled both my hands up from his sides to kiss them.

“Gary boy please don’t make me cry.” I pulled my hands away and sat myself down on the sofa just behind me. “Lets do something fun tonight?” I didn’t want to stay here feeling sorry for ourselves. There was more to do than just cry the whole night. “why don’t we just have fun babe i hate being sad” I pulled him toward me so he could sit next to me. I wiped the tears from his cheeks and gave him a kiss. I made sure it was a long deep kiss. I didn’t want to stop there but my phone rang.

“Babe let’s go to R&B tonight and dance the night off before Gary Boy goes on the plane tomorrow!” It was Jane. I heard John and Tim’s voices in the background. “R&B it is babe. see you guys in a bit.”

I ended the call and pulled Gary to his feet. “come on babe get ready let’s go out and have some fun okay?” I pulled him toward me to give him a tight hug before going up the stairs. He ran up behind me and swept me off my feet. “Let’s go in there together” he was raising his eyebrows while looking over to the bathroom and giving me that cheeky look he always had when he wanted something.

“oh no you don’t Gary boy” I shook my head smiling at him begging him not to bring me in there. “oh yes I do” he laughed and walked toward the bathroom just focusing his eyes on mine and closed the door behind us.

We drove off to R&B that night, Jane and the guys were waiting for us outside.”what took you guys so long huh?” Tim was pushing John’s shoulders againts his and raising his eyebrows in a teasing manner.

Gary walked over to Tim to whisper in his ear. Tim started laughing and slapped Gary on the shoulders “Ok bro i get it! Chill!” Gary put his arms over Tim and John’s shoulders gave me a wink and signalled us to go inside.

I walked with Jane and we followed them in. There was a hell of a crowd that night. “You guys have been MIA babe where did you guys go?” Jane was screaming in my ear as we headed inside. “It’s like you guys went on a honeymoon or something!” She laughed as she held my hand and pulled me toward an empty table where the guys were already sitting.

The lights were blinking and the neon lights were making me dizzy. I sat down and waited for the guys to order before signalling to Gary to help me order my drink. He walked over and sat in the chair next to me and put his arm around my waist. “You want to get a bottle or just a glass? we can share.” He screamed into my ear. I didn’t know what to get so i leaned over to Jane and asked her the same question. She signaled a bottle. I looked over to the guys and they just shrugged their shoulders. “Then bottle it is” I said to Gary and just in time as well because the waiter just happened to step in front of the table where we were sitting.

we danced and drank the night away and by the time we were done everyone was wasted including Jane. We walked over to the nearest mamak place and had a hot coffee before heading back.

“what time is your flight again Gary boy?” Jane asked before heading off that night.

“Umm 1pm, make sure you guys come okay!” Gary gave that please come look.

“Then 1pm it is we’ll be there 2 hours before” Jane said as she headed back to her car and drove off. John and Tim had left earlier and Jane said that she would ask them to come too.

That night I drove back to the beach house slowly. both of us were still tipsy from the drinks and i told him if he wanted me to drive i could take over the wheel. “okay babe i never seen u drive before. Why not?”

Sorry guys there is still a continuation on this chapter but i couldn’t think of what to write… I think I updated too much today. I’ll continue on Monday I promise…

TO BE CONTINUED….

Bill? Please! (Chapter 12)

The called ended abruptly and when I tried to call him back there was no response. Before I could try calling him back again my phone rang. It was Jane. “Babe get over to the parking lot NOW! don’t ask anything Just get here NOW!! move it” She hung up the call.

I sent a text to David to send someone to help Berry before running off to the Parking LOT. Jane was waiting for me in her car. “What’s up?” I was confused with everything. “where are the guys?” There were so many questions running through my head right now.

“Babe please tell me that this has nothing to do with Gary. Please” A sudden surge of panic ran through my veins as thoughts of negative things came into my mind.

“Okay chill let’s go to the cafe so you can tell David that you have to go because this is super urgent” Jane started to drive toward the cafe.

I ran to David and told him I had an emergency and I had to get going at that moment. Without him approving anything I left. I ran back to the car got in and my phone rang again. It was Gary again.

“what’s going on babe you are scaring me!” I said as I answered the call my heart pounding so hard that my head felt every beat of my heart as i spoke. I couldn’t make out what he was saying probably bad reception. I hung up the call and turned to Jane.

“what the hell is going on here!” I was going to go mad with confusion. “babe quit telling me to chill and just say it!” I said getting really impatient as the seconds ticked. Jane just drove on and took a deep breath before she started to speak.

“It’s Gary boy. He…” she paused. I was going to scream but i just kept taking deep breaths to keep myself from getting mad.

“he is what??” i grabbed at her arm and started shaking it. “Come on Jane start talking. You guys are scaring me!”

“He got attacked just then by this Gang when we were at Cafe Rio. I’m sorry babe, John and Tim didn’t tag along today it was just us.”

My heart felt like it was going to jump out of my mouth.”WHAT?! what gang? why? OMG!” I felt my breaths getting shorter and it was hard to breathe all of a sudden. “How is he? is he okay? Where is he Jane!!” I was shaken. This is just too much. Who would want attack him? My heart was racing I was getting dizzy from thinking. “Jane answer me!”

“Babe I don’t know why they attacked him okay. They took him away and he’s been trying to call me and you ever since. I followed them and called the police and now he’s at the police station.”

“Is he hurt babe?” I felt better knowing that he was at the police station but I couldn’t help but worry.

“a bit” she said as she drove on down the road. “just bruised that’s all.” So many things wondered through my mind that very moment and I felt myself blacking out but i shook it off. We drove past cafe Rio and Jane pointed out to a group of guys sitting at one of the tables. “they were with the guys that attacked Gary Just now.”

I looked over to the group and saw Bill’s brother. “Damn that guy! it’s Bill! That’s his brother there! STOP THE CAR JANE!” I felt like jumping out of the car and just going there to whack the guy! I heard jane lock the door and she stepped on the accelerator and drove off.

“NO! we have to get to Gary boy. He needs you right now babe! They can wait” Jane knew what i would have done if i got out of that car and that would have caused more trouble. The police station was just a few blocks away and we needed to get to Gary quickly. As we reached the gates of the police station we saw Gary waving at us from his car. He was standing outside waiting for us to get there.

Before Jane could stop the car and park properly I had already unlocked the door and opened it and was stepping out of the car. “Jane press the brakes for goodness sake” I was too worried to care about how anybody felt right now. All I wanted to do was get to Gary and check on him.

I ran toward him as fast as I could. “OMG babe are you okay? What did they do to you?” I pulled him and hugged him tight. I was crying, I was losing it!

“Sshhh, babe it’s okay i’m fine right?” He pushed my shoulder back and lifted my chin up to look at him. “I’m fine, thanks for coming here.” He pushed my hair away from my eyes and wiped the tears away. He pulled me back to hug me my head in his hand and the other hand just rubbing my back.

“umm Guys I have to get going okay” Jane said patting us both on the shoulders. “I have to work tomorrow.”

I pulled away from Gary and gave her a hug “thanks babe for this. Sorry about me going cranky on you just then”

“nah its fine babe i understand. u guys take care okay.” she waved goodbye and drove off into the night.

I turned around to face Gary again. He was touching his face where there was a bruise. “he grinned, what a day babe. First the accident and now this.” He took my hands and pulled me over closer to him. “I guess it’s just a bad day. let’s go and get you back to work okay.”

I pulled my hand away. “no I don’t want to go back to work babe. look at you.” I said checking on the bruise on his face. “I can’t leave you like this let’s just go back to the beach house okay” I really didn’t feel like going to work. My tears started coming back down. I remembered the group of guys that were sitting there at Cafe Rio. “O my god babe, I am so sorry this happened.” I couldn’t hold the tears back anymore. “what did you do to make them do this to you?” I sat myself on his car hood and put both my hand in front of my face. I felt Gary stroke my hair.

“Babe let’s get into the car okay.” We both got into the car. It was silence the whole way to the beach house. I looked outside and that image of the group at Cafe Rio kept appearing in my mind. One of these days i will go and talk to that kid, I hope Bill has nothing to do with this. If he did I will do something about it. I was biting my bottom lip holding my anger in I didn’t realize that I was biting too hard My Lips started to bleed. The next thing i know we were at the beach house.

“Babe stop biting on your lips too hard. You’re bleeding. let me see that” Gary pulled my chin up to see my lips. “chill okay?” he pulled me closer and kissed my lips. I put my arms around his neck to return the kiss pulling him closer. “errmmm. okay babe let me take a look at that bruise there” I pulled away to get some water and a towel to put on his bruise.

“They beat you up pretty bad hey babe” I wiped his face with the warm cloth and pressed on the bruise with the wet cloth.

“ouch! Yeah and they were going to stab me too, luckily Jane called the police on time” Gary pulled away from the towel.

“sorry babe just a little bit more and we’re done” I put the towel away to cuddle close to him on the sofa. “you must be tired hey” I put my hand under his shirt and ran my hand across his chest back and forth. “errmm yeah babe, too many things happened today babe.” He grabbed my hand took it out from under his shirt and kissed it. “but if you’re here i don’t feel it babe. you just make all the troubles disappear.”

“babe you need to rest okay, too many things happened today” I kissed his fore head and pulled the blanket over us as i laid down beside him on the bed that night.

“what if i don’t want to rest?” He grinned at me giving me that mischievous look. “what if i said i wanted you so bad i didn’t care about anything else in the world” his eyes focusing on mine he pulled me by the waist with both hands to pull me close. “hmmm babe, i love the smell of your hair it turns me on” he whispered in my ear and kissed my neck trailing down toward my shoulder. I didn’t bother to say anything. I just let him do whatever he wanted and followed his every move.

He did everything slowly tonight, he took his time. Every move, every stroke, every kiss, every touch, every push. leaving me moaning and asking for more. It was a night that i would never ever forget. By the time it was over we were both gasping for air just holding each other tight. He was still dropping kisses down my neck. He nibbled on my ears whispering “i’m not done yet baby girl”

“oh gosh babe let me catch my breath first” I opened my eyes looking him straight in the eye. There was this warmth in his eyes and it was full of desire. He smiled at me “just kidding okay. I just want to kiss you on and on and never stop babe”

I sighed and just moaned with every kiss he made. “babe can u do me a favor” he was whispering into my ear again.

“of course babe what is it?” i sat up and faced him waiting for him to ask me.

he reached behind to his back area “i’m kinda in pain right down my back here” with a smile he continued “please…”

I asked him to turn around so i could massage his lower back. “i told you to rest right? but noooo u had to please urslef first.” i said as i pushed into his back with my knuckle.

“Arrgghh. Damn that feels so good babe” he moaned with pleasure as i worked down his lower back and the sides where his hips were. “its been some time you didn’t give me a massage right?” he asked giggling.

i still remembered that last time i gave him a massage he tried to kiss me so i told him i would never massage him again. That was last year. “haha yeah babe you were being naughty so no way” I sighed before continuing “i am glad u never quit though. Didn’t you get sick of trying?”

“hmm i guess i was at some point but i just couldn’t stop… I guess” he reached back pulled my arms away and turned to face me cupping my face in his hands. “i fell for you the minute i saw you that day at inter school sports tournament babe. I thought that if i didn’t go and talk to you i would go crazy” he took one if my hands “and it made me more crazy watching you with those guys, and worst when they hurt you. I felt useless coz i couldn’t tell u how i felt but finally i told u and yeah u didn’t feel the same way i did” he giggled a bit and continued “i felt everything ended but hey i picked myself up and as my late mom always told me, if u love her you have to learn to let her go and that is what i did… I never expected u to actually fall for me too” he pulled me closer “but I’m so happy that u finally did, really these past few days with you babe were the happiest days of my life. Thank you for letting me love you and take care of u” i was so touched by his words tears just rolled down my cheeks.

“o my gosh Gary boy… so touching” I said. I started to giggle I couldn’t help myself. My intention was to tease him and release the stress of the moment. I was really getting stressed up because he was going to be leaving soon.

“I am serious okay babe.” he was getting annoyed because I was giggling when he was being romantic. He always got annoyed when i did that.

“I’m just trying not to think of the fact that you are going soon” I pulled in to cuddle against him again closing my eyes. He pulled the blanket over and soon I dozed off.

The Anniversary (Chapter 11)

“Hey Lyn before you go over to the sandbar come here for a sec.” He asked me to hand over a few of the reports that I always do after I set up at sandbar and after our breaks later in the evening. We discussed on the changes that were going to be made with the management and we had to bring one of our bartenders up for promotion. I was to choose one of the guys at the cafe. That is not an easy task. I asked for some time to think about it.

After a quick conversation with David I walked over to the Sandbar . He sd he was actually doing me a favor by opening up both outlets. I got to Sandbar and everything was set up. Even the cafe was set up at the cafe side just then, the fruits for the juice bar, the teh tarik stand, coconut stand, the cocktail bar, well they wereall set up and ready to go. I was surprised.”what’s up with boss maam?” Berry asked me as we cleared the sand out of the bar. There was a storm last night and the sand always fills the bar at the chiller area. “he looked like he won the jackpot or something” berry was lifting the draft beer can so i could sweep the sand out from under the chiller.

“I guess he is just happy.” shrugging my shoulders I bent down to take a mug out if the chiller. I filled it up with ice and started to chew on the ice cubes one by one. Berry shook her head in disgust. It was a relief after having to walk from the hostel all the way to the outlet which is like 20minutes.

“how could u eat ice like that maam” she continued to set up the drinks into the chiller “like total brainfreeze much” she shiverred just saying that to me.

“Takes me off my stress Berry” I took a freddy knife from my bag and tore another ice bag to put the ice in the cooler where we kept extra chilled beer just in case the chillers were full. I loved knives every time I had a knife in my hand I would have this feeling of cutting myself and make myself bleed. I looked at the freddy knife in my hand. If only I could just use it and cut a bit on my arm… nah… i have been trying so hard to stop that habit. I can’t just cut again. I pushed the blade in and out …

“Lyn! Don’t you dare think about it! put that knife away babe!” I dropped the knife in shock and turned around. Gary was sitting right behind me at the bar. I looked at the time, 5pm are you kidding me? Don’t you ever get tired Gary boy? I said to myself. He was wearing a hooded jacket a small bandaid on his forehead. He wore the hood over his head and He had his glasses on. “come over here…” he signalled me to come over with his fingers. Me and Berry looked at each other. Berry held her hand over her mouth giggling.

I sighed and leaned over the bar toward him looking him straight in the eye whispering “please don’t do this during my working hours mr Gary boy, you know i don’t like playing around during working hours right?” i pinched his nose gave him a wink bent down and picked up the freddy knife placing it back into my bag. Out of the corner of my eye i could see him biting his lower lip like he always does when he didn’t like what I was doing. I decided to make him his favorite drink to ease him up. I made him his nescafe tarik and placed it in front if him so he could drink it.

I had to look after the bar till break coz Berry was alone. Jen had gone back to her hometown so David had adjusted the roster so there were enough people to cover each shift. I didn’t want Gary to be mad at me so i walked out of the bar and sat next to him when the crowd died down at 6pm. It was time for me to do the briefing at the cafe. “I’m heading to the cafe, briefing session, u wanna come?” I asked him holding his hand in one hand and pushing his hair away from his eyes with the other hand. I climbed up the side of the stool he was sitting on and whispered in his ears “you look sexy with those glasses on. I’ll be back okay sexy” i kissed him on the cheek before hopping down and walked my way to the Cafe.

From a distance I saw David had already started the briefing. There is something up with him today. It was like something had knocked some sense into him. I ran up to the group to join the briefing. David talked about the meeting we had and there were going to be changes in the management soon. He assigned everyone to their working stations and we went off for break.

I walked my way back to the sandbar with some of the guys coz they were on their way to the foodcourt for their break. My phone message notification started ringing so i checked my phone and let the guys go ahead while i walked to check on the girls at the bar. It was a text from Gary “waiting in the car”.

“ouch! He’s mad at me” i said to myself as i headed into the bar to get my bag. I took the knife out and threw it into the cashier drawer and headed out for break. I had a feeling this wasn’t gonna be a good night.

I took a deep breath as i opened the door and entered his car. I gave him a hug and kissed him on the cheek. “hey sexy, what’s with the silence?” no answer. He started the engines and drove off. He drove to the other side of the beach and pulled over at the car park. He turned the engines off and lit a cigarette. I took a cigarette from his box and lit it too. I couldn’t stand the silence.

“babe? Is everything okay?” i threw my cigarette out his car window and turned toward him. “i’m sorry about just now…” i paused looked down at his hands while i played with his fingers. “i was just opening that ice bag. I didn’t even think about cutting myself okay”

“yeah rite!” he pulled his hand away to get his phone and fiddled with his phone. “i saw that look in your eye babe, that look everytime you have a knife in your hand… Pure evil” he put his phone down and sighed.

I didn’t know what to say. I tried so hard to prove to him and Jane that i can control myself and it had been ‘months’ since i cut myself. I turned toward him “babe… If you brought me over here just to tell me off i am just going to walk over to the foodcourt there and get something to eat coz i am starving. I only have 45minutes left to eat.” i tried to open the door but it was locked from Gary’s side. “Unlock the door Gary boy.” i felt tears coming and i wanted to get out of there. “Now! I mean it!”

I felt him hug me from behind and kiss me on the shoulder. “i’m sorry baby girl…” he pulled my face toward him “i’m just worried about u…i’ll go crazy if anything happened to you” He kissed me on the lips and my forehead before reaching into the back of his car and pulling up a bouquet of roses and a box of chocolates. “surprise…i guess u forgot today was the day we met 5yrs ago babe”

OMG i totally forgot. No wonder he was sensitive. “awww u r so sweet” i gave him a hug. I ran my finger along his lips pulled his glasses off and kissed him. “you are the most…thoughtful…romantic guy…i have ever met…” i paused between the kiss to talk “i am just so in love with you right now” I pulled away from the kiss and cuddled close to him leaning my head on his shoulder. I turned to him and grinned “i’m hungry gary boy”

“I already bought food babe.” Again he reached to the back of the car to take the food.

“ermmm yumm chicken wing…what else you got back there?” i asked him as he put the chcken wing in my mouth. “You got doraemon or somethin behind there? and please let me feed myself babe, i’m not a baby anymore okay?” I took a chicken wing and bit into it. I closed my eyes and chewed on just enjoying every bite as i swallowed. I didn’t realize Gary was watching me. He was smiling. “what?” i didn’t care I was too hungry.

“i love it when you do that babe” Gary gave me a pat on head and got a chicken wing for himself to eat. “eat up ok i have to send u back to work.”

We ate as fast as we could and when we finished we just sat there looking at each other. I put Gary’s glasses back on. He hasn’t worn those glasses for a long time. “you need to wear these more babe, sexy glasses.” i teased him and finally gave him a final kiss which lasted a while. We finally pulled away from the kiss giggling at how funny it was that we had the same thought at the same time.

“we’re just made for each other i guess baby girl” he said as he drove back to the cafe. little did I know that this was going to be our last few nights together. i waved goodbye as he drove off into the night. Jane and the guys were not coming over tonight so I guess He will only come to pick me up later after work. Or maybe I would have to walk with the guys if he was too tired. I was okay with either way.

That night went by so slowly. There were not many customers and that just added more waiting time and by the time it was an hour before closing time everyone was so tired of doing nothing that Berry decided she wanted to pull a stunt so wild that a crowd of people crowded in front of the bar just to take a look at her.

She actually put the music on really loud, jumped on the bar and started dancing. She eventually pulled a few of the people from the crowd to come and dance with her on the bar. Eventually people started ordering and more people came to see her dance. I didn’t bother telling her to stop. I just got myself busy and just took the orders and prepared them for the customers.

I think the crowd caught David’s attention because soon I saw him walk toward us from a distance. The tables were full and people were still crowding in. I pulled at Berry’s legs to get her down from the bar before David saw her, But it was too late.

David stood at the front of the bar with his arms crossed in front of him. Berry froze in fear and didn’t move. I looked over to David and he called me to the back area.

“What the hell do you think you are doing?” I don’t know whether he sounded annoyed or he was actually liking what Berry was doing on that bar. I signalled Berry to get off the bar. “no just let her stay there” I actually saw a smile coming from his serious face. I signalled Berry to keep going giving her a thumbs up sign.

“why didn’t i think of this? unbelievable.” He slapped me in the shoulder laughing “you girls are so unpredictable! keep this up and you guys will get another promotion. I want you to give me the sale reports and today you guys are open for an extra hour.”

Great! another miracle from the girls. I was actually happy we could open an extra hour since the customers still kept ordering. It actually didn’t end there. Suddenly Bill’s friends showed up. They had gathered in the corner end of the Sandbar and waved at me to come over to take the order. I looked at my Phone and we had another 15minutes before closing time. These guys always ordered cocktails and for cocktails we had to get them from the cafe area which was already closed.

I walked over to the table worried about what to say to them. “Hey Lyn cocktails still available?” i shook my head signalling that the main cafe outlet was closed. “well lets have hot drinks then. After agreeing to have teh tarik they specifically requested me to make each glass and of course i knew how each of them wanted their drinks to be since I always used to hang with them.

I asked Berry to send the drinks over after making them. My Phone was ringing so I went to the back area to answer. It was Gary. He was talking so fast I couldn’t understand him. “hey gary boy slow down. take a deep breath. I can’t understand you.”