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In The Dark

Have you ever heard of that song from evanescence “I’m going under”? I love that song and yeah i was in that situation last month. First of all i want to apologize to all of you for disappearing for a few weeks not updating anything and seriously I didn’t mean to do that. I was in a lot of stress and I couldn’t think of what to update here. Every time I start a post I would write a few words, delete the whole thing and then start again. It went on like that for a few days and in the end I just closed the app and decided i might do an update later on. I procrastinate a lot so later ended up today a few weeks later. I am so so so sorry guys.

First things first I want to update you guys that I have already bought my new guitar! Yes yes yes and yes! Here’s the picture of the beautiful guitar. Hahaha! It’s Pink I chose that color coz everything I have now is pink. I used to hate that color a lot but now i think it just calms me down just like when i look at the sky or the grass and etc. It’s been quite a while since I last touched a guitar so I am still getting used to it. Getting all the blisters on my fingers again and of course remembering the chords. I can’t even play the songs i wrote a few years back.

I actually didn’t bake a lot these days and i have gotten so lazy I didn’t even bother to bake anymore. I have to get rid of that laziness. Let me tell you about what happened that made me dive into the darkness for a while there. You guys know that I have issues with my other half right? Well, on the 5th he came over with my eldest boy to spend a week here. I was so happy that I could see my little boy again and of course to see him. Even though thigs weren’t going right between us I still had feelings for him. The good thing is that we spent the whole week shopping which is what we all girls like to do but… jeng jeng jeng… there is a but. I told you he had this temper right? Well i thought that we hadn’t seen each other for quite a while that he would miss me.. na ah! He was 24/7 with his phone! He even locks his phone, and another thing is that he liked to yell at me for small things like not remembering the way to the babysitter’s place. I am only human, I just sent them there once and my sister was driving. I really couldn’t remember the way. He was so impatient he starte cussing and so on. Well that emotionally disturbed me and even worse he didn’t even bother to talk to me when we were at home. He spent his time with his darling handphone. Didn’t even bother to look at me. We had fights every single day. I felt so unwanted. Well I wont tell all in details thought coz that’s for me to know and keep.

I know to some people what happened is like someting small and wouldn’t effect their lives but he was not like this last time and the drastic changes do effect the way I feel when he does that to me. Oh my gosh! I have to update the story now and there are so many other things I want to update too. I just hope I can remember them all to post them here.

Well see you in the next chapter of The Not so Romeo & Juliet Story.


Bedrest (Chapter 21)

It was 3am and I was freezing again. I looked over at the bedside and Bob was sleeping with his head resting on the bed.

“hey Bob” i tapped him on the shoulder to wake him up. “Bob, what are you doing sleeping here?”

He got up and looked at the time stretching and yawning “you okay?” he rubbed his eyes looking at his phone to check the time. “You haven’t eaten yet you know I’ll get you some hot chocolate so you can take your meds okay” He walked out and then returned with a hot mug of chocolate.

“you poor thing” I said taking the hot chocolate from him. “go to bed already I’m fine here” I took a sip from the hot chocolate and placed it on the table next to the bed.

“no you are not fine lyn” he sighed sitting down on the chair next to the bed. “your temperature has gone up” He said scratching his head “mom and the girls aren’t home till the day after tomorrow and I don’t know what to do” He stood up and started to pace back and forth in front of me.

“Bob, calm down” i said taking another sip from the hot chocolate “I’m fine. Sit down and relax. Come here” I pointed to the chair next to the bed and asked him to sit down. “you are making me dizzy pacing back and forth like that” I said giggling.  “I’ll be fine after taking the meds okay”

He sighed and sat down. “is your arm still hurting?” I just shook my head even though it still hurt badly. I just wanted him to relax and stop being so tense. It was making me tense too.

“Bob, stop worrying about me. Just take a deep breath follow me okay” I started to breath in and out asking him to follow me and soon we were both laughing. “you feeling better now bob?” I asked him smiling and drinking more of the hot chocolate.

“I don’t know how you do it Lyn” he said smiling and taking my meds from the bag on the table “I know how much pain it is to be in your position because I went through it before and I tell you I didn’t do really well” he laughed handing me the bottles one by one with the measuring cup in the other hand.

“trust me bob, I’ve been through worse okay. I took the meds one by one and gave him the bottles as I finished each one. “there, I hate meds urrrgghh!” I saw Bob smile out of the corner of my eye as he placed the bottles back in the bag. “I have had asthma all my life Bob, and the hospital, clinic etc is like my 2nd home” I said pulling the blankets over my shoulder. “trust me it’s not easy to go through that” I sighed and smiled at him. I laid my head down on the pillow and looked at Bob who was just staring at me.

“What?” I said tapping him on the arm “why are you staring at me like that bob?” I was feeling awkward with the way he was looking at me. He didn’t answer he just smiled and shook his head sighing. He put the chair behind the door and went to the living room returning with a few of the sofa cushions and a blanket.

“I’m going to sleep on the floor” He said placing the cushions on the floor and laying down closing his eyes “just wake me up if you need anything okay”

I laid down and tried to sleep but the image of what happened last night still haunted me. Every time I tried to close my eyes I felt myself jump off the car and land on the pavement. I could still feel the pain and the words that came out of Bill’s mouth, “nobody is going to help you today Lyn” kept repeating in my head.

“Bob? are you still awake?” I called out to Bob just to check if he was still awake. He was still awake. He sat up and asked me what was wrong.

“you okay? what is it?” without asking he stood up and sat on the chair beside the bed. I looked down and sighed.

“I can’t sleep. I can’t get him off my mind, i’m scared Bob” I fiddled with my fingers. Bob sighed and took my hand.

“Look I am here Lyn, don’t worry” He pushed my hair away from my face and pulled my chin up to look at him “what do you want me to do to make you feel better lyn” he said my hand still in his. “just tell me okay”

“can you like sleep here…” i said pointing on the bed right next to me. There was a shocked expression on his face.

“really Lyn? you don’t mind sleeping next to me?” he said with a shocked look “i snore loudly you know” he said laughing.

I couldn’t help laughing as well. “I feel more comfy if someone was next to me” I said smiling. “sorry this is just how I am, just don’t do anything stupid okay.” I warned him shifting over a bit so there was enough room for him to lay down beside me. I didn’t have to ask twice he laid himself down beside me pulling the blanket over us and just closed his eyes. I cuddled closer to him to keep warm. I was actually freezing but I didn’t tell him.

“Hey you’re pushing me off the bed Lyn” Bob sat up again and started laughing asking me move over more so he can lay down properly. I sat up and moved over more giving him more space. “are you cold? i can get more blankets, just wait okay” He ran upstairs and was back with more blankets. There was a thermometer in his hand. “here I want to check your temperature” he handed me the thermometer and asked me to put it in my mouth. “i’ll be back” he left to go to the kitchen and came back with a glass of water. He took the thermometer and took a look at it. “Damn your temperature is insane Lyn!” He put the thermometer on the table next to the bed. “you don’t look like you are sick girl are you okay?” he handed me the glass of water and I took a sip and gave it back to him and asked him to lay down and sleep. I had already put the blankets over myself and as soon as he laid down I pulled his arm over my shoulder and laid right next to him with my head just leaning on his chest.

“shh just close your eyes and sleep okay” Bob whispered in my ear pulling the blanket over us with his other hand. “I’m here and I wont let him touch you” he pulled me closer and held my head with his other hand. It didn’t take me long to doze off and I fell asleep.

“Lyn? wake up it’s lunch time” I felt Bob tap my shoulder to wake me up. I stretched and yawned my head was throbbing.

“go away my head hurts!” i pushed bob’s hand away and put the pillow over my head. I fell asleep again and then I woke up feeling a cold sensation on my fore head. Bob had put a wet cloth on my head to keep my temperature down.

“hey how u feeling?” Bob helped me to sit up on the bed. Food was ready and placed on the table right next to the bed. “you need to get something to eat”

“Ohhh mannn!” I held my head in pain “My head feels like it just got knocked by a big fat hammer” I said closing my eyes with my hands over my head “aarrrgghh” I couldn’t help it but i felt like screaming at the top of my lungs my head was hurting to the point it felt like it was going to explode.

“hey how u feeling?” Bob helped me to sit up on the bed. Food was ready and placed on the table right next to the bed. “you need to get something to eat” I put my hands in front to reach out for the food but Bob just pushed them away. “I’ll help you girl, don’t worry about it okay” I couldn’t say anything I was too sore to say anything.

After what seemed like hours I finally managed to talk “what time is it bob?” I was trying to find a clock on the wall and my phone was nowhere to be seen “and where is my phone?” I looked over at Bob who was reading his messages.

“O sorry I charged it outside and it’s 4pm girl” he went outside to take my phone and handed it to me. He felt my forehead to check my temperature. “phiewph~ glad you are not so warm anymore” he said sighing as he sat himself back down on the chair.

I checked the texts and missed calls. there were so many and noticed that it was already Sunday. I needed to meet up with Grace tomorrow. I have to get better. “I need to get better bob, I have to see my Sister tomorrow. Not in this condition” I sighed and checked my left arm. It was no longer in pain but I know the wounds are not healed yet.

“let me take a look at that” He lifted my arm and looked at the bandages “does it still hurt?” I shook my head and smiled at him. “sorry for bringing u into this bob, i really appreciate you taking care of me like this” I took his hand and held it tight. “Thanks”

After freshening up and changing the bandages Bob decided that we go out and eat. I still think it wasn’t safe for me to go out because Bill still kept sending me threatening text messages. I had already called his dad and asked for help because he was scaring me and what he did to me was so unacceptable. His Dad assured that he was going to make sure that Bill doesn’t disturb me anymore and if he did to call him right away. I was feeling better after that but I was still scared to eat out. I offered to cook dinner for Bob to thank him for all his help.

“Okay girl go ahead I will just go and watch TV okay.. everything is in the fridge” He smiled and headed over to the living room to watch TV with a mug of coffee in his hand. I opened the fridge and tried to figure out what to cook for dinner and then my phone started ringing.

Don’t Know Why~ Norah Jones (Cover)

I have been doing a lot of singing lately and I mean a lot! well here is another cover… SOLO this time hahaha….


Link to the Cover PLEASE CLICK HERE <—-click there to listen

Here are the Lyrics if you want to sing along

I waited ’til I saw the sun
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I left you by the house of fun
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I don’t know why I didn’t come
When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand
My heart is drenched in wine
But you’ll be on my mind
Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I’ll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone
My heart is drenched in wine
But you’ll be on my mind
Something has to make you run
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don’t know why I didn’t come
I don’t know why I didn’t come

Chandelier Cover (Duet) Just for laughs….

Chandelier duet … on smule  <—–click on the link to listen

please don’t make fun of the funny voices okay…


Here are the Lyrics Just in case you feel like singing along…

Party girls don’t get hurt
Can’t feel anything, when will I learn
I push it down, push it down

I’m the one “for a good time call”
Phone’s blowin’ up, they’re ringin’ my doorbell
I feel the love, feel the love

1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink

Throw ’em back, ’til I lose count

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

But I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cos I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cos I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight

Sun is up, I’m a mess
Gotta get out now, gotta run from this
Here comes the shame, here comes the shame

1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink
1,2,3 1,2,3 drink

I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I’m gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I’m gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier

When I was a Kid…

My dad said when I was a kid I was really talkative and I didn’t care who it was and where I was, I would talk to anyone that stood beside me or in front of me, whether I knew them or not. Hahaha that’s funny Coz when I see myself now, It’s hard for me to talk to people I don’t know, unless they start talking to me that is… My dad also said that I would follow anyone as long as they gave me something I liked… That’s true till today but I don’t follow just anyone…

I used to sing alot, ask alot of questions like a normal kid would. I was really annoying though and I wouldn’t stop asking till I thought what you said was correct “for me” and that didn’t mean that I was listening to the correct information. ERRRKKSSS… typical kid! hahaha.

There was this thing that happened back then that I would remember until today. It was celebration for Hari Raya Aidilfitri I forgot which year, we were on our way to my grandma’s place when we got involved in a car accident half way…. My cousin was killed and a few other people were badly injured. Back then they used trucks as public transport and that’s what we rammed into.

I didn’t really remember what happened, after all I was only a kid at that time. Ok Here’s the story from what I remember it to be…

I was sitting inside the pick up with my mom, sister, dad, and my grandma (my mom’s mom), the others were sitting at the back. The others were 3 of my aunts and 2 of my cousins. As usual a kid would never sit still inside the car no matter how much you nag at them, so there i was jumping about inside the car listening to my grandma nagging when all of a sudden my dad started to swing his arm from side to side trying to shoo something away from his face, he said there was a bee in the car and he was trying to push it out of his view. From the front of the car I saw a big cloud of dust form up maybe because a car was coming from the other side. I could still hear my grandma nagging before I heard screams and felt myself fly out from the front of the car. Maybe the mirrors broke that’s why I flew out.

I got up and saw that the pickup truck was facing away and I was under the  other truck’s front Tyres. What I didn’t know was I nearly got run over by that truck and my head could have been smashed to bits if it didn’t stop in time. I wasn’t  scared because I didn’t know what was happening at that time. I ran toward our pickup truck and started knocking on my dad’s side of the door. I didn’t know he was knocked out cold. He opened the door after what seemed like hours and I started to cry now afraid that they left me behind here in this place where I didn’t know anyone at all.

Frankly speaking, I didn’t know what the hell was happening at that time. All I wanted was mommy! My dad carried me and checked on the back of the pickup truck. My cousin was unconscious and my aunts were bleeding everywhere. After a while the ambulance came and I went in with my unconscious cousin on the same ambulance.

When we reached the hospital, they didn’t treat us like we had an emergency. Don’t know what their system was like back then. They asked us to fill up some forms and without that we weren’t allowed in and no treatment was given to us! Jack asses! My cousin was unconscious for goodness sakes! After what seemed like hours we finally finished all the paperwork, my cousin was taken to ICU and I had to get my head stitched up. My dad had a broken nose, my sis had a bruise on her bum and my grandma had a short amnesia… My other cousin had a cuts on her knees and that was it, my aunt broke her hand and the other 2 were fine just cuts along their necks and faces.

That afternoon we heard the bad news about my cousin. She had internal bleeding in her brain so she didn’t make it. She died halfway through the surgery. I bet that’s because of the fact we took so long to fill up the paperwork before anybody decided to do something. I really was close to her and losing her was a big thing for me. Her parents were there when the doctor told us that she was gone. I saw my uncle punch the wall and left a big crack on the wall. He is gonna hate my dad forever! That’s what was on my mind back then…

That event, will be remain in my head till the day I die. Even though I was still a kid at that time… I faced a near death situation and I hope that will never happen again….

No one is going to help you today (Chapter 20)

I opened my eyes and the lights were so bright I had to cover my eyes with my hands. I could hear Bob’s and David’s voice. “Is he gone?” I said trying to get up. There was a sharp pain on my left arm. “Ouch!”

“Hey, you’re finally awake” Bob hurried over to my bed side and helped me to sit up. “You had us all worried there girl”

“I’m fine” I said still holding my left arm in pain. “What if he comes again guys? I’m scared.” I said looking at both David and Bob hoping for an answer.

“You can stay over at my place for the night Lyn” Bob was the first one to answer “My mom and sisters are there so you don’t have to worry”

“If anyone comes by looking for you I’ll just say you went back to your parents place okay” David added on. I just nodded and started packing my stuff.

“Here let me help” bob helped me carry my backpack and helped me down the stairs and just before we reached the front door, I stopped bob. “Bill has this thing about stalking people he might be out there somewhere waiting for us to drive out…” I said pausing

“Great! How did you get together with this guy anyway?” He dialled a number and spoke to one of his friends then hung up. “We are going to wait for my boys to come over okay.” he took a chair from the dining table downstairs and told me to sit. “You are going to be in the same car as the boys ok Lyn. I will drive by myself with your stuff and we are going to meet up somewhere and change cars okay.

“I have a better Idea” I said checking my contact numbers list “just ask your guys to tell us if they see his car parked anywhere I could just call his dad and tell him what happened” I said looking for Bill’s dad’s number in my contact list.

“He’s nowhere to be seen Lyn let’s go” Bob unlocked his car and helped me in. He quickly drove off making sure I stayed down as low as I could so no one could see me in the car. I felt like I was a captive running for my life.

We arrived at his house pretty quickly. “stay in the car till I ask you to come out okay” I just nodded and kept laying low while he parked his car and opened the door to his house. He grabbed my bags out of his car and placed it inside. I recieved a text and read it.

“Stay in the car. I saw his car drive by I am just going to close the gate and door for a while. Will be back to get you okay.”

I held my breath and kept laying as low as I could closing my eyes and trying to keep myself calm. I don’t want my asthma to ruin everything. I heard a car pull over in front of Bob’s house. He opened the door and opened the gate to let his friends in.

“Lyn standby ok. 3 of my boys are going to open the car and help u in the house just follow them in keep covered ok”

I read the text from Bob and did as I was told. I didn’t bother to look left right or behind when the boys came by and opened the door. I got out quickly and followed them into the house. I sat down on the sofa and looked around. I heard Bob’s Sisters coming down the stairs as Bob walked into the house. “Thanks Guys” he said thanking his friends for the help “u okay girl?” he walked over to sit next to me” I just nodded.

“hey bobby we going out with mom tonight she’s meeting us out for dinner we will pack u both something to eat k.” They didn’t look surprised to see me there. “you must be Lyn” She put her hand out for a handshake  I took her hand “I’m Betty and she is Brenda just make yourself at home” she headed out toward the door “hurry up Brenda!”

I smiled at Bob “Bobby?” and giggled “that is so cute” I pinched him on the cheeks and saw him blush. His friends started laughing. “ok Bob we better get going now” his friends headed out the door too and soon we were left alone in the house.

My left arm was still hurting and I lifted my arm to check the bandages. “wow! Your arm Lyn, it’s bleeding!” he hurried over and checked my arm. “we have to change the bandages Lyn” he said pausing to get my bag. “Here…” he handed me tha bag “the guest room is straight to the right from the kitchen”

I walked into the guest room and locked the door behind me. After cleaning my cuts I had trouble putting the new bandages on I need your help after all bob I said to myself as I walked out the door. Bob was watching TV. He looked at me with a worried look on his face.

“u okay girl?” He walked toward me. I just nodded and gave him the bandages “I just need some help”

“my pleasure” he took the bandages and asked me to sit down on the sofa in front of the TV. “Just relax” he sd smiling “tell me if it hurts okay” I nodded and shut my eyes knowing how much it is going to hurt.

“My left arm kinda hurts a lot please put the bandages on slowly” I said reminding him. He just kept himself busy putting the bandages on and sighed after putting the last bits on.

“has he done this to you before?” He stood up to put the scissors back in the kitchen cabinet. “what did you see in him? he nearly killed you!”

I just shrugged my shoulders “he hit me before and stuff but he never went further than that” I watched TV and turned to him when he passed me a mug of Hot Chocolate.

“you hungry? What’s taking the girls so long?” I heard Bob sigh as he started dialling numbers on his phone “Mom I’m starving and Lyn is here” he said pausing and listening to his mom talk. “aaawww man. When u guys coming back? That’s not fair!” He walked into the kitchen and then came out with some vegetables a knife and cutting board. “okay mom c u guys” He hung up and put his phone on the table sighing. He looked at the vegies on the table then looked at me. “you know what? I have no idea what to cook” He sat down at the dining table “i’m going out to get some food” He packed the vegies and took his car keys heading for the door. “Go inside the room Lock the door and Wait till I get back. He switched off the TV, lights and fan closing the door behind him. I was left alone in the dark. I headed to the guest room and closed the door. I didn’t bother turning on the lights or the fan in the room. I was freezing anyway.

I checked my Phone, it was still 8p and I had dozens of unanswered calls and more messages.

Sam: Hi Lyn I dropped by at the hostel and your boss said you went back to your parents. Hope you already took your meds. Take care…

Jane: Babe? long time no hear. I just got back from outsation. Has Gary boy called yet? Dropping by the cafe later on with Tim. cya

Bill: Where are you? I know that Guy is helping you hide from me Lyn! Let’s just see how long you can hide from me… cu around princess muuahhx

Grace: Hey meet me at Cafe Rio on Monday 9pm k… will call you soon

There were still more messages but I was too tired and soon I dozed off still holding the phone in my hands. I was sitting on the floor beside the bed and I had left the door unlocked.

“Lyn!! open the damn door!!! I know you’re inside!” I was awakened by the sound of Bill’s voice Knocking on the front door. He laughed and then continued knocking “No one’s going to help you today Lyn… hahahaha”

I felt my heart skip a beat. The banging on the door got louder and harder and eventually I heard the door break open. I stood up and tried to walk over to the guest room door to lock it but I was too tired. I couldn’t force myself. It was too late Bill already found me. He was standing in the middle of the doorway. “hahahahaha” I saw him smiling at me with the evil grin on his face “no one’s going to help you today Lyn” he started to walk toward me and put his hands around my neck choking me really hard. I tried to fight him but I wasn’t able to move I was too weak. “No one is going to help you today Lyn!” He started shaking me really hard. Crazy thoughts ran through my mind “am i going to die today?”

He shook me harder and harder, my breaths just got shorter and shorter till I thought it was really the end of me…

“Lyn!!! wake up! It’s me girl…” I suddenly heard Bob’s voice “breathe girl breathe For goodness sakes!”

I opened my eyes and the room was no longer dark. I quickly got up and tried running out the door. Bob grabbed my arms and pulled me back. “it’s me Lyn! Look at me!”  I cried and hugged him without thinking. “He was here…” I said sobbing “He tried to Kill me Bob.”

“It’s okay Lyn u were just dreaming” he tried comforting me hugging me really tight “He was never here. Trust me okay” He rubbed his hands up and down my back. I was still breathing hard and it was really hard to breathe. I pulled away from Bob and sat myself on the bed. “I’m freezing…” I paused catching my breath “I can’t breathe properly Bob” I put my head between my knees breathing out really long breaths and breathing in short breaths. It took longer than expected but I managed to gain control of my breathing again. My heart was still thumping so hard.

Bob had just gone upstairs to get some blankets and was walking into the room. “here some blankets to keep you warm. You want anything to eat?” I was going to say no but remembering that I have to take my meds I just nodded and tried getting up to go to the dining table. “whoa…” I felt my knees buckle and Bob caught me just in time before I hit the floor. “steady there Lyn” My head was throbbing and I was feeling dizzy “U okay girl?” Bob was looking at me, he helped me sit on the bed as he placed pillows behind me so i can lean back. “You feel warm” he said walking out of the room coming back with some food and a glass of water. I had already wrapped myself in the blankets he got earlier.

“can you help with the food Bob” I said softly, I could only see a blurry image of him sitting in front of me with the plate in his hand. “I don’t feel so good” I closed my eyes and leaned my head back on the pillow behind me sighing.


It’s Time to rest Lyn (Chapter 19)

I got up hearing the sound of knocking on my door. “coming!” I said trying to get up putting my sweater on. I was freezing. I checked the time on my phone and it was already lunch time. I opened the door to see David there.

“Holy Dumbells! What happened to you?” He said in shock walking into the room to sit on my bed. I just walked over to sit next to him.

“Just an accident last night. Everyone left me behind so I had to walk back alone” I paused fiddling with my phone. “what’s up? Anything you want me to do?”

He got up from the bed and walked towards the door. “Yeah actually I just came up to check if you already made up your mind about the promotion.” He winked and started to walk out “Tell me once you get better okay. How many days you gonna take MC?”

I walked over to my bag and handed him the MC from the clinic last night “Whatever it says on the Med cert boss” I said looking right at him. He sighed and said I could take the whole week off so I could get better then walked off closing the door behind him.

There were a few missed calls on my phone from Bill, Sam, Bob and Jane. I didn’t bother to call back because I really felt tired and needed to get some more sleep. I slumped myself back on the bed and stared at the ceiling. Then the call I was waiting for. Grace finally called me “Hey sorry about the chaos I created” She said when I answered the call.

“you should be. Dad is furious he is threatening to leave us!” I said trying to keep myself calm. “Everyone thought I helped you run away from home. What got into you?” I added sitting up so I could talk better.

“Can we talk later? I’ll text you my address later and we can meet up okay?” She hung up the call and I knew if I called her she wouldn’t answer so I just put my phone back on the bed and stared at the ceiling again. I guess staring at the ceiling was my favorite thing to do now that I have so many things to think about nowadays. I forgot that I had promised Sam to meet up today and my phone was ringing again.

“Hey Lyn. I’m downstairs u ready yet?” I looked out my window and I saw his car parked downstairs.

“Sam something happened last night and I don’t think I can go out. Kinda injured can you come up to my room?” I said sighing. He hung up the call and soon I heard a knock on the door. I took a deep breath before opening the door expecting the same reaction that I got from David just then.

“please don’t ask me questions okay” I said as I opened the door.

“My goodness!” He said in shock “Are you okay?” He grabbed a chair from behind my door and sat down. I walked over to my bed and sat down too.

I nodded and sighed “Long story” I paused for a few seconds “I jumped out of someone’s car last night. Don’t ask me anything yet okay I don’t feel like talking about it. I am so sore right now Sam”

Sam still had the shocked look on his face. “You really jumped out of a moving car? That’s like stunt man thing girl! You are lucky you’re still alive.” he said sighing. “you had anything to eat yet? I can go buy you some food and we can just hang out here for the rest of the afternoon.”

I just nodded and told him he could get me anything and it was fine. He left and was back again really quickly. “you taken your meds yet Lyn?” He said handing me the packed food. I shook my head puting the food on the make up table just in front of me.

“I’m just going down to get us some plates” i told him as I walked toward the door.

“No that’s fine Lyn we can eat out of the packaging” he said stopping me “you need to get some rest okay?” i shrugged and sat back down on the bed and handed him the plastic bag with the 2 packages inside. He handed me one and we started eating straight away. I didn’t feel like eating and as usual I would just play around with the food with the chopstick. He noticed I was doing that “Here open up I know you don’t want to eat but you have to” I pushed the spoon away and put some food in my mouth. I didn’t want anyone else to spoonfeed me other than Gary.

“Okay Sam I will eat” I said smiling at him. I swallowed the food without chewing and told Sam Grace had called and I was waiting for her to text me her address so we can meet up with her later on.

“I know I’m not supposed to ask but I just want to know who did this to you Lyn?” He finally said after a few minutes of silence.

“My ex did it Sam. He said he was going to send me home last night coz everyone left me behind at the cafe.” I said pausing and looking at Sam who was still waiting for me to explain more on what happened last night. “He was pissed off because I didn’t notice he was at the cafe so he was just driving off and I didn’t know where he was taking me, so I jumped out of the car” I stopped talking and waited for his response.

“Why didn’t you call me Lyn?” He said shaking his head sighing “I could have come and sent you home, and why did you still get in the car knowing his temper was something he couldn’t control?” he said sighing.

I didn’t bother answering I was too tired. I just sighed and looked down on the floor. “sorry i don’t feel like talking about that Sam” I said fiddling with my phone. I wish Gary would call me so I could tell him everything. I sighed and looked over at Sam who was also fiddling with his phone.

“Hey take your meds where did you put them?” Sam asked me suddenly after putting his phone into his pocket. I pointed to the bag behind him. He grabbed the bag and handed it to me. I took the bottles out of the bag one by one and checked the labels following the instructions on each label.

“there you happy now?” I looked at Sam who was smiling at me shaking his head.

“you are like a baby you know that Lyn?” He sd laughing. “I am going to make sure you take your meds from now on till you are better okay. I’ll call you if I have to.” His phone suddenly rang and I knew he was talking to Ryan because whenever Ryan called they would call each other this name that I don’t even know how to pronounce. Sam told Ryan what happened and Ryan said he wanted to meet up somewhere later on. I heard him say 5pm then hung up the call.

“I have to get going Lyn” he said placing his phone back into his pocket. “what’s your ex’s name anyway?” he said standing up and putting the chair back behind the door. “And what car does he drive?”

“Why you askin me this Sam?” I asked him with a confused look on my face.

“Just curious” he said walking out the door. “Hurry up tell me i have to go”

“It’s Bill and he drives a pajero, a gold colour one” I said still wondering why he wanted to know so much.

“Okay got to go Lyn will call you later okay. see ya” he waved and was off. I watched him drive off and decided to take a nap.

Before I could doze of my phone rang again. It was Bob. “Hey how you doing? taken your meds yet” I couldn’t help but laugh when he said that. “What’s so funny girl?” He said confused why i was laughing.

“Sorry, I have been hearing the same thing for like nearly 2 hours when everyone calls me…” I said to him gigling “yeah I’m fine bob and yes i have taken my meds. Where are you?”

“I’m downstairs got you something to eat here coming up in a second” I looked out my window and there he was. I just ate something with Sam and now Bob is here with more food. I opened my door before he got upstairs and he came in with a big smile on his face.

“so how r u feeling today?” He put the food on the table and the packaging from Sam’s food was still on the table. “looks like you got visitors before me there haha” He said opening up the food. “luckily i got us snacks instead of lunch hey”

“Yeah I’m kinda full now. Just need to get these bandages changed” I told him reading the instructions on the other meds on the table.

“here let me help you with that” He took the meds from my hands and started reading.”You want me to help with the dressing?” He started to take the new bandages out of the bag.

“na ah!” I shook my head and took it off his hands. “I’ll do that later Dr. Bob” I said giggling putting the bandage under my pillow.

He smiled at me and started to munch on the snacks he bought. “want some?” he handed me the box. I took the banana fritter and started eating it.

“Guess what Bob?” I said chewing on the banana fritter “My sister finally called me” I sighed and swallowed whatever was left in my mouth. “She is going to text me her address and hopefully I can meet her by tonight”

Bob smiled and pinched my nose “You are one bubbly person you know that Lyn. It’s so fun just hanging out with you” He placed the box back on the table and handed me a drink he bought. We were interrupted by the noise of horning downstairs. we both looked at each other. “It’s him” I recocginzed the sound of that horn it was from Bill’s Car I was just about to look out my window when Bob stopped me. “let me go down to take a look, please lock your door. If anything happens don’t ever come down okay”

He walked out and closed the door behind him. I heard him talking with Zack, Harry and Rico, they were heading off to work already. I looked at the time and it was 3pm. There were missed calls from Bill. I had blocked his number so I didn’t get notifications if he called in. My heart started to beat faster as I heard Bill scream out my name. “Lyn I know you are up there!” he kept pressing his horn.

“She’s not here Boss.” I heard Harry’s voice “She didn’t come home since yesterday. You want to pass a message?”

“I know she’s here” he said again “Lyn! get your butt down here!”

This time I heard Zack’s Voice “Boss don’t u understand what he said? she didn’t come home since last night” Zack also had a temper problem and he would always pick up fights with people. “If it’s something important we can pass the message to her”

I heard Bill turn off his engine getting out of the car. OMG please don’t go up here. I was praying really hard he wouldn’t go up to the room. Bob please do something. I quickly hid in the corner beside my bed where there was just enough space for me to fit in. My heart was beating so hard I couldn’t hear anything but my heart. I heard another car pull over in the driveway. “please let that be david” i said to myself.

“Hey what’s going on here” I gave a sigh of relief hearing David’s voice and I know if Bill was alone with more than 2 guys around he wasn’t brave enough to do anything stupid. “Anything I can help you with there bro” He said to Bill “you are Lyn’s Boyfriend right? She’s not here she didn’t come home. I’ll tell her you dropped by okay.” I heard Bill get in the car and drive off. Zack Harry and David were talking downstairs and I heard Bob’s voice as well. He told David what happened last night and always to keep an eye on me just in case Bill came and caused any trouble at the cafe.

I felt my breaths get shorter and it was harder for me to breathe. Soon the boys were knocking on my door. Gosh I locked the door! I tried getting up but It was so hard to get up. I wasn’t able to breathe properly and I just couldn’t move anymore. I felt myself black out and the last thing I heard were the guys calling in for me to open the door.

BOB HELP ME! (Chapter 18)

“you okay?” Sam’s voice was clear on the other line and he sounded sleepy. “I just arrived home and getting into the house. What’s up?”

I didn’t expect him to call me back so fast. “Let’s just text okay” I said not in the mood to talk. I was fiddling with the bed sheet and the corner of my pillow.

“okay, i need to get myself in the house first.” Sam answered and then hung up the call.

We texted about a lot of stuff and we only stopped texting at around 3am when I told him that he had work in the morning and he needed to rest.

Sam picked me up from the hostel just after lunch to go look for Grace and we met up with some of her friends there and asked her to text or call me urgently. Sam had reserved a place so we could have lunch together and we spent the rest of the afternoon together just hanging out. He sent me to work and then was off to meet Ryan and his boys.

It was a busy day and we were packing for the day and my phone started ringing. It was from an unknown overseas number. “omg Gary!” I quickly answered the call and it was Gary.

“Babe! how are you? I’m going crazy over here without you!” His voice was so clear and I felt so relieved to hear that voice again. I sat myself down at one of the benches nearby the bar at the cafe. “I don’t think I am able to come back that quick babe. So much to do” I heard him sigh.

“I miss you Gary BOy” I said my eyes started to fill up with tears. I was crying and I couldn’t talk. “come back here, I need you”

“please don’t cry babe, My hands are tied I can’t go back there.” He tried to comfort me.

We didn’t talk for long it was 6am there and he had to get to work. He promised to call me back soon. I got up and walked over to where the staff were gathered but they were no longer there. There was a text from Berry and they had already gone ahead without me. Great! now I had to walk home by myself. Jane, Tim and John hadn’t come by to the Cafe for some time now, have they forgotten about me? I quickly walked toward the main road hoping I could catch up with the guys. I was shocked to see Bill’s Car parked right in front of the Gate. He was waiting for me. He flashed his lights signalling for me to get in the car. I walked over to the driver’s side and signalled for him to wind the windows down.

“get in the car, I’ll send you back to the Hostel” he put the windows back up so I walked over to to the other side and got in the car.

“how did you know I was alone?” I asked him as he drove off.

“I was at the cafe the whole night Lyn, you didn’t notice me?” His face was serious and he didn’t smile at all. It was really busy and I didn’t even see him the whole night. “who were you talking too on the phone just then huh? your new boyfriend?”

I was getting annoyed but I tried to keep calm to make sure he would send me back to the hostel and not take me somewhere else. Bill had a temper problem and he would just yell scream hit me if he didn’t like what I said or did. “It was busy Bill, I think you did see me running around like crazy taking orders right?” I said trying to explain the reason why I didn’t notice he was even there. “And I was talking with Gary boy on the phone, my best friend. I thought I told you about him already.” He didn’t say a word and drove faster. I didn’t like this and started to text Bob. He lived nearby and I didn’t want to disturb Sam at this hour.

“Hey, my ex just picked me up from work sd he’s gonna send me back to the hostel but his temper is coming and I might need ur help. Will update you if i need help okay. Don’t call me.” I pressed the send button and took a deep breath. “I thought you’re sending me home Bill?” I said looking over at him after he missed the junction to the hostel. Still no answer I was really getting restless now. I didn’t care I was getting out of this car no matter what happened.

“Bill stop the car or I will jump out I don’t give a damn okay!” I screamed at him. Still no answer he just kept driving on toward town. He had locked the car from his side but I still could unlock it from my side of the car. I tried my luck again. “STOP THE CAR BILL! I’M GOING TO CALL THE COPS! STOP THE DAMN CAR!!!” I was screaming at the top of my lungs and I was terrified. His dad was a cop and I knew he wasn’t scared. I dialled the first number I could remember. It was Bob’s number he answered the call after 2 rings. “HELP!!!” that was the only thing I managed to say before Bill grabbed the phone off my hands.

“No one is gonna help you today Lyn!” He kept driving on. I didn’t care and I decided I had to take things into my own hands. I pulled hard at the lock and tried to open the door. If I was going to die today it would be better than being in the same car as Bill! A ghust of wind blew in as I opened the door grabbed my bag and my phone which was on the floor. I took a deep breath and jumped out of the moving car.

It was dark and I landed with a thump on the sidewalk and it was odd because there were no cars driving behind Bill’s Car. I had rolled a few times before I could regain control of myself. My head and arms were hurting and I don’t know how I got up but I ran in the opposite direction as fast as I could. I heard Bill’s brakes screech as I ran down the road. I know he couldn’t drive against traffic so I just kept running as fast as I could. I checked my phone and it was still on line with Bob. “Bob help!!!” I was talking and running at the same time.

“girl where are you? i am already driving out now.” He sounded really worried.

“I have no idea where I am everything is dark. I just jumped out of his car. He just wont stop driving.” I said pausing to look back just in case Bill was crazy enough to drive against traffic ” OMG Bob he is coming after me” I said panting really hard now. I crossed the road to the other side so he couldn’t run over me. I was crying and I didn’t recognize anything to find out where I was. “BOB!!” I screamed and kept running. then something caught my eye. I read out the first sign board I could see and Bob asked me to find somewhere to hide while he gets there. I couldn’t find anywere to hide so I hid behind a flower bush at the sidewalk right behind the bus stop. My heart thumping so hard it felt like it was going to jump out of my mouth. My arms and my head were hurting and I was feeling dizy. Bob was still on the line. “I’m nearly there girl just hang in there okay.” I was blacking out and I don’t know if I could hold it any longer. I can hear Bill’s voice calling out and soon I heard his car drive off. “He’s gone…” I said to bob who was still on the line I sighed and felt myself black out.

I got up to the vibrating and ringing of my phone. It was Bob. Before I could answer, the call ended and I heard footsteps coming. I held my breath and didn’t move. “Lyn?” It was Bob’s voice. “Girl it’s me. Where are you?”

I tried to get up but my body was aching too bad to move. “I’m here” I said as loudly as I can waving my arm in the air hoping he could see me. “Behind the bus stop” I added trying to get up again but it was still no use.

“O my God!” I heard Bob gasp in shock as he walked toward me. “Are you okay?” I felt my breaths getting shorter I couldn’t talk. I just shook my head and covered my face with my hands. “let’s take you to the nearest Clinic okay” He said helping me up. I couldn’t even get up he had to carry me into the car.

“How did you even get in the car with that idiot in the first place Lyn?” Bob was furious with what happened. “You should have known better.” I didn’t bother answering him because I knew I shouldn’t have went with him in the first place. My whole body was hurting and I had bandages all over my arms and knees and my head. The doctor rubbed on my cuts so hard cleaning it just then to avoid infection. My asthma was just starting and I had to use that breathing technic again to feel better. I was so tired I couldn’t focus on what Bob was actually saying. I held my head between my knees bending over. We were in the car heading back to the hostel. “Can we not go back to the hostel yet Bob?” I didn’t know what to do next.

“Sorry for raising my voice girl” Bob was looking over at me “Are you okay? you need anything?” He pulled over to the side of the road to check on me.

“no I feel like I got run over by a truck Bob.” I took a deep breath and closed my eyes leaning back on the seat. “Sorry for troubling you and thanks for helping.”

“Don’t mention it” he smiled “I’m just glad nothing worse happened. You want to go home now?”

I dug into my bag to get some cash and handed it to Bob. “I need to get something to eat” I said grinning at him. “starving…after that then we go home okay?” He nodded and drove off to the nearest opened stall to pack some food. I waited for him in the car while he packed the burger i asked for. Suddenly I caught a glimpse of Bill’s Car drive past and park just ahead of Bob’s Car. I slid myself down so he couldn’t see me and quickly sent a text to Bob.

“Bob, he’s here hurry up…”

I saw Bob turn toward me after reading the text and looked around to look for Bill’s Car. Once the burger was done he quickly walked over and got in the car. “He went over to join his friends at the table over there girl, don’t worry he didn’t see me.” He passed the plastic bag with the burger inside and drove off pushing my head down lower so no one could see me in his car. He drove the car to the 2nd beach and we parked there for a while.

“Oh My Gosh Bob” I said sighing with relief “How is it we are always at the same place at the same time?” I said opening the burger to take a bite. I wasn’t able to open the burger package my hands were hurting. “Gosh I hate it when this happens” I pushed the plastic bag back down and leaned back on the seat sighing and looking out the window. Bob grabbed the plastic bag and opened the burger for me.

“There” Bob handed me the burger “eat up tell me if you need help okay?” I started eating and then asked if he had a bottle of water in the car for me to drink. After that he sent me back to the Hostel and helped me all the way up to the room so I could rest.

The week off…

First of all I would like to apologize for not updating anything for the past few days. It’s not that I didn’t want to but a whole lot of things happened that I didn’t even get to touch my phone and update anything.

Baby Fever
First of all Adrian and Amsyar caught the fever and when I sent them over to the babysitter on Monday I didn’t expect them to be sick because they weren’t acting like they were sick and they were totally fine. Monday evening I got a text from the babysitter saying that both were having a fever and she didn’t want to look after them when they are sick. She was giving a whole lot of excuses so she didn’t need to look after them. She asked me to pick them up the next day after work. I was too tired to argue with her so I just said okay. My sister was working the morning shift so I had to ask help from someone else.

when we got there Adrian was awake by himself in front of the TV and the babysitter? She was sleeping. That was just great! If you found your kid in that situation what would you have thought? I really was happy to take them back and look after both by myself not minding to take off for the next few days for my beloved babies. I was not going to leave my kids like that NO WAY! so there I was asking someone else for help to get my kids and really I hate troubling other people. I needed to get my kids to the clinic A.S.A.P. I had to wait till my sister got back from work to take Adrian to the clinic. amsyar’s fever had gone down but Adrian just got worse. I called the office to inform that I couldn’t come if for work and left for the clinic. After that we just went home had dinner and that was it for that day.

My mom’s arrival
My mom arrived the next day and i didn’t get to go with my sister to get her at the airport because the kids were at home. Adrian got better so I went to work on the 10th but on the 11th I had just come in to work for like an hour and I had to go home because Adrian’s temperature had gone up again so there I was again going home off work. The next day I got a message from my Team Leader and she told me that I could take another day off to look after the kids. I was really grateful for that. The weekends came around and the kids got a bit better and then we sent them to the babysitter again on monday.

That was my week…
I am still updating on the next chapter for the story though so keep posted guys.